這場戲：被說成自己捂住嘴
第 20 章 · 共 22 章 · 3'40"
法庭上有人被追問嘴上那隻手是誰的，連聲說不，腦子已經亂了。對方忽然客氣，她還是 fall for it（還是中招了）。對方遞出 I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you（我明白那一晚對你又難熬、又讓人搞不清）。先把人問糊塗，再承認那晚又難又亂。這種先壓後哄，面試和談判裡都聽得出來。
❝ 獨白 · 11 句 什麼，我自己的手？What, my own hand? 是反問否認
my own hand 什麼，我自己的手？——反問否認not just because 不只是因為no extra hand 騰不出另一隻空閒的手pinned down 被按住，身子動不了
盯著人問 How dare you?，就是質問你怎麼敢
How dare you 質問你怎麼敢fall for it 還是中招了get it over with 把難受的事趕緊了結I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you 我明白那一晚對你又難熬、又讓人搞不清
證人席上，有人被追問捂在嘴上的那隻手到底是誰的。她連聲否認 What, my own hand?（什麼，我自己的手？），下一句說那是朱利安的手。問題卻不停，兩隻手若都按著手腕，就騰不出手捂嘴，那隻手被說成是她自己的。她腦子亂了，一句 I can't catch up（理解跟不上節奏）。後來她想起一隻手抓兩隻手腕，另一隻手捂住嘴和鼻子。對方道了歉，忽然客氣，她還是 fall for it（還是中招了）。問又開始，對方說出 I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you（我明白那一晚對你又難熬、又讓人搞不清），先承認那晚又難又亂，再繼續問。職場裡這種先認難處再往下問，也要留神。
A1–C2 是歐標等級。點一個等級後，比它高的卡片會變淡，播放到那裡不會自動暫停。
“'But no. No, no. That's not what happened. I didn't want to have sex. I felt sick.'”
不。不，不。事情不是那樣的。我不想發生性關係。我當時覺得噁心。
先整句否定對方版本，再把不願和噁心並置，拒絕不留縫。
先說不是那樣，再說我不願意。
對信任的人把性邊界說死；公開場合或對上司別說得這麼裸。
That's not how it was. ／ I didn't consent to that.
口語
No, no 兩下短促，sick 落在句尾壓低。
That's not what happened between us, and I didn't want to move in. 我們之間不是那樣，我當時也不想搬到一起。
“'No, I did not put my hand on my mouth to protect Julian from my sour breath.”
不，我沒有把手放在嘴上，去不讓朱利安聞到我發酸的口氣。
用完整句子退回對方塞來的動機，否認不縮成一聲 no。
我並沒有做某事去擋住某物。
正式澄清「我不是為了那個理由」時用；朋友閒聊別甩全句。
I did not do that for the reason you gave. ／ That was never why.
正式
did not 兩個詞都站穩，後面動機一口氣帶過。
I did not cancel the trip to spare you the bad news. 我取消行程，不是為了不讓你聽到壞訊息。
“Or I could have removed my own hand from my own mouth and just screamed.”
或者我本可以把自己的手從自己的嘴上拿開，然後直接喊出來。
could have 把沒做的事說成當時做得到，兩隻 own 把責任釘回她。
我本可以做一件事，然後直接做另一件。
用來轉述別人怎麼怪你當時沒做；真心自責時別拿這套冷邏輯。
I could have just walked out. ／ Or I could have said something.
中性
could have 連著放輕，screamed 單獨加重。
Or I could have closed the laptop and just walked home. 或者我本可以合上電腦，直接走回家。
“And why am I up here being made to look like a liar?”
那我為什麼站在這兒，被弄得像一個說謊的人？
問句並不求回答，being made 把騙子從身份改成別人的手法。
為什麼把我弄得像……？
被公開歪曲時對信任的人說；當眾對上司說會像控訴全場。
Why am I the one who looks dishonest? ／ Don't make me look like the problem.
口語
why 抬高，liar 落下，整句不要帶著笑。
Why am I being made to look like I leaked the file? 為什麼把我說成是我洩露了檔案？
“I feel so broken I want to go with him, just to get it over with.”
我已經碎了，只想順著他，好讓這件事快點結束。
碎了仍順著他，不是認那一夜，是隻求盤問快點結束。
我已經很碎，仍想順著對方，只求結束。
只對最親的人承認自己會為收場而讓步；對上司或談判別說。
I was so tired I nearly went along. ／ I would have agreed just to make it stop.
口語
broken 放沉，後半句放輕，像氣一點點洩掉。
I felt so worn down I wanted to take his side, just to stop the shouting. 我已經耗盡了，只想站到他那邊，好讓爭吵停下來。
“I want to be reeled in.”
我想被釣回來。
把撐不住說成願意被釣上來，求結束，也承認自己會靠過去。
I want to be 再加一個被收回的狀態。
只對最親的人說自己撐不住、想被收場；對上司或談判別用。
I can feel him reeling me in. ／ I just want this finished.
literary
reeled 放重，in 短收，像線被拉緊。
His soft voice made me want to be reeled in, just so the argument would stop. 他那點軟話讓我想被釣過去，只求這場爭吵快點停。
But then all these questions about Julian's arms, his hands. Which one was holding down which of my wrists? I realise they're trying to say that if Julian had one hand on each of my wrists, then he had no extra hand to cover my mouth. So, I was mistaken. I wasn't actually pinned down and, of course, I could breathe. In fact, the hand on my mouth must have been mine, just saving Julian from my bad vomit breath. The QC is saying, if it was my own hand on my own mouth, as he suggests, then I could have used it to push Julian away. Or I could have removed my own hand from my own mouth and just screamed. My mind is messy. I can't catch up. 'No. No.'
可接著全是關於朱利安的胳膊、他的手的問題。 哪一隻按著我的哪隻手腕？ 我明白了，他們想說，如果朱利安兩隻手各按著我一隻手腕， 他就沒有多餘的手來捂我的嘴。 所以，那就是說我記錯了。 我其實沒有被按住，而且當然，我能呼吸。 事實上，嘴上那隻手一定是我的，只是不讓朱利安聞到我吐過的難聞口氣。 皇家大律師在說，如果捂在我自己嘴上的是我自己的手， 像他主張的那樣，那我本來可以用它把朱利安推開。 或者我本來可以把自己的手從自己嘴上拿開，直接叫出來。 我腦子亂了。我跟不上。「不。不。」
下一章 · 21news to me我完全不知情這場戲：換房被說成動機不是。What, my own hand? 是反問，後面連著一串 No，下一句是 It was Julian's hand。若要肯定那是自己的手，才說 It was my own hand。這句反問不是「強調就是我的手」。
對方道完歉，忽然客氣，她仍 fall for it（還是中招了）。依據是 like every victim I have cross-examined before, I fall for it。看過別人中招，輪到自己，還是會接住這點善意。
對方被盯著，連著兩聲 How dare you? How dare you?，就是質問你怎麼敢。不是在商量。後一句問，為什麼站在這兒被弄得像個騙子的是自己。
這句話緊跟在對方說「那是她自己的手、自己的嘴」之後，字面是就好像那是一場遊戲。as if it were 用虛擬，表示好比是，不是承認那一夜就是遊戲。誰說的，對白沒標。接著有人說 A game?（一場遊戲？），又說 Like the game of sex at chambers（像事務所裡那種把性當成遊戲的玩法）。chambers 這裡指出庭律師的事務所。
原句是 I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you，意思是那一晚對你又難熬、又讓人搞不清。對方先把這句話遞出來，再繼續問。要先表示理解，得把 it was 後面說完，例如 I understand it was a hard week，不能只背 I understand it was。
