這場戲：星空下坦白吃藥心事
第 15 章 · 共 18 章 · 2'30"
兩人坐在屋外看星星，有人忽然開口坦白自己一直在吃 anti-depressants（抗抑鬱藥），還說 I feel so embarrassed（特別難為情）：生活看著沒毛病，心裡卻總有說不清的悲傷。對方輕聲回應，表示能理解。想聊那些說不出口的心事、想接住朋友的脆弱，這幾句都很貼。
❝ 獨白 · 13 句 坦白吃 anti-depressants（抗抑鬱藥）
anti-depressants 抗抑鬱藥nothing wrong 沒有任何問題comes from 來自、源自haven't cried 已經很久沒哭過
兩人坐在屋外看星星，一句 Decent amount of stars tonight（今晚星星不少）之後，話題慢慢變沉。有人坦白自己一直在吃 anti-depressants（抗抑鬱藥），而且 I haven't told anyone（沒跟任何人說過），連最親近的人都沒講；說這些時 I feel so embarrassed（特別難為情），因為生活裡 nothing wrong（沒有任何問題），可就是有一股悲傷，And I don't know where it comes from（不知道它從哪兒來）。對方沒有追問，只輕輕說 Well, I can understand that（這我能理解）。後來被問到怎麼不跟克里斯聊聊，回答是 There was a time（曾經有那麼一段時候）我會說的。想聊心事、想安慰別人、想解釋一種說不清的難受，這些說法都值得記。
A1–C2 是歐標等級。點一個等級後，比它高的卡片會變淡，播放到那裡不會自動暫停。
“Can I tell you something?”
我能跟你說件事嗎？
一句最普通的開場，卻把坦白前的猶豫說得剛剛好。
Can I tell you something?
想鄭重說一件事、尤其是不好開口的事時用；對熟人、對家人都能用。
Can I tell you something important? ／ Can I share something with you?
口語
tell you 連讀，句尾用升調表示詢問。
Can I tell you something that has been on my mind? 我能跟你說一件一直壓在我心裡的事嗎？
“And I don't know where it comes from.”
我也說不清它從哪兒來。
把說不出口的難過塞進一句 I don't know，越平越重。
don't know where it comes from
說不清某種情緒、毛病的來由時用；語氣無奈，適合對信任的人說。
I can't tell where it comes from. ／ I don't know where it started.
中性
don't know 連讀，where it 輕輕帶過。
I get anxious on Sundays, and I don't know where it comes from. 我一到週日就焦慮，也說不上來為什麼。
“Well, I can understand that.”
嗯，這我能理解。
不說教、不追問，只用一句 I can understand 把對方接住。
I can understand that.
別人說出難處或委屈時用；表示共情，不要跟著補一堆建議。
I understand how you feel. ／ That makes sense to me.
中性
understand 重音在第三音節，句尾自然下降。
I can understand why you are upset about it. 我理解你為什麼為這件事難過。
“Yeah I don't have that particular problem myself.”
是啊，我自己倒沒這個特別的毛病。
一句半自嘲卸掉沉重，讓坦白不至於變成獨角戲。
I don't have that problem.
別人講自己的困擾、你想接話又不搶戲時用；輕鬆場合較合適。
That's not my problem exactly. ／ I don't have that issue myself.
口語
particular 重讀，myself 輕收。
I don't have that particular problem, but I do hate mornings. 我倒沒這個毛病，可我特別討厭早晨。
“Why don't you talk to Chris about it?”
你怎麼不跟克里斯聊聊這件事？
看似建議，其實點出了她把秘密藏得有多深。
Why don't you talk to someone?
給人提溫和建議時用；語氣比 You should 軟，別在對方正難過時追問。
Maybe you should talk to him. ／ Have you talked to Chris about it?
口語
Why don't you 連讀，talk to 輕輕一帶。
Why don't you talk to your doctor about it? 你怎麼不去跟醫生聊聊這件事？
“There was a time when I... I would have.”
曾經有一段時間，我會的。
說一半停住的 would have，把說不下去的過去留成空白。
There was a time when...
感慨今非昔比、話說到一半說不下去時用；語氣很私人，適合對老友。
I would have once. ／ There was a time I would have said yes.
literary
句中斷開兩截，would have 放輕，尾音下沉。
There was a time when I would have joined you without thinking. 換作從前，我想都不想就會跟你去。
I've been taking anti-depressants... For a while. I haven't told anyone. You know, not even Chris. You know, i don't know why... I feel so embarrassed... About taking them. And it's probably because there's nothing you know, there's nothing wrong with my life. I should be happy. But there's this... Sadness... And I don't know where it comes from.
我一直在吃抗抑鬱藥…… 有一陣子了。 我沒跟任何人說過。 你知道嗎，連克里斯都沒告訴。 你知道，我也不知道為什麼…… 我覺得特別難為情…… 因為要吃這些藥。 大概是因為，你知道，我生活裡沒有任何問題 我的生活。 我本該是快樂的。 可心裡總有這種…… 悲傷…… 而我不知道它從哪兒來。
下一章 · 16on my behalf替我這場戲：說起孩子走後的空房子就是「抗抑鬱藥」，用來治療抑鬱或情緒低落的處方藥。臺詞裡說 I've been taking anti-depressants，就是我一直在吃這種藥。
feel embarrassed，也可以說 feel so embarrassed 加重語氣。它的意思更接近「覺得尷尬、不好意思」，不一定是羞愧，用在這裡是因為吃藥這件事不好開口。
there was a time，後面常接 when 從句。比如 There was a time when I would have，意思是「曾經有那麼一段時候，我會那麼做」。
字面是「沒有錯、沒有問題」，這裡指生活挑不出毛病。說話人不解：明明一切正常，卻還是難過，所以更覺得難以啟齒。
大部分時候就是「來自、源自」，可以指人來自某地，也可以指情緒、問題的來源。這裡說不知道這股悲傷從哪兒來，就是取後者。
可以說 I can understand that，簡短又溫和。對方分享難以啟齒的感受時，用它既不追問也不敷衍，是很好的一句接話。
