這場戲：電臺談害羞與商場閒逛
第 11 章 · 共 17 章 · 5'02"
上電臺前有人問 You're wearing that?（你就穿這個？），進了直播間，主持人念出華萊士那句自評「既極其害羞，又是個自戀狂」，他補一句：害羞其實就是 self-absorbed（自我沉溺）。下節目兩人去逛美國購物中心，他又自嘲再暢銷也 you can't win（贏不了）。想學會用一個詞精準形容性格，也學會用英文自嘲，這段很妙。
電臺聊害羞：self-absorbed（自我沉溺）
burst on the literary scene 橫空出世、一鳴驚人self-absorbed 自我沉溺、只想著自己a little bit of both 兩邊都有一點
❝ 獨白 · 7 句 書是寫孤獨的：read hard（硬著頭皮深讀）
read hard 硬著頭皮深讀nerve endings 神經末梢do me a great favor 幫我個大忙
❝ 獨白 · 8 句 暢銷的悖論：you can't win（贏不了）
shore yourself up 撐住自己、穩住自己sells really well 賣得特別好、暢銷you can't win 怎麼做都不對、贏不了
華萊士和利普斯基趕到明尼阿波利斯做電臺節目。上節目前，一句 You're wearing that?（你就穿這個？）先來點火藥味；主持人介紹他 burst on the scene（橫空出世），又念出他那句自評「既極其害羞，又是個自戀狂」。他解釋說，害羞其實就是 self-absorbed（自我沉溺），沉溺到讓別人難跟你相處。下節目後兩人去美國購物中心，他聊起寫作要寫出美國生活的質感，也聊到孤獨，還自嘲書賣得好就 gotta be shit（肯定是垃圾），再暢銷也 you can't win（贏不了）。想在聊天裡精準形容性格、幽默自嘲，這些說法都很能打。
A1–C2 是歐標等級。點一個等級後，比它高的卡片會變淡，播放到那裡不會自動暫停。
“I think being shy basically means being self-absorbed...”
我覺得害羞基本上就是自我沉溺……
一句話把害羞從討喜的性格翻成自我的毛病，視角夠狠。
being X basically means being Y
想重新定義一個人人熟悉的詞時用；對當事人當面說會顯得冒犯。
Being quiet often just means being self-absorbed. ／ What we call shyness is really self-focus.
literary
basically 輕讀，self-absorbed 重讀拉長。
Being busy often just means being self-absorbed. 所謂忙，往往只是自我沉溺。
“All I know is this is absolutely the best I could do between 1992 and 1995.”
我只知道，這是我在一九九二到一九九五年間能拿出的最好的東西。
用年份框住一段心血，謙遜裡全是底氣。
all I know is this is the best I could do
想平靜地為自己多年的付出辯護時用；對客戶承諾時別說這種話。
All I know is I gave it everything I had. ／ This is simply the best I could manage then.
中性
absolutely 重讀，兩個年份放慢，句尾落平。
All I know is this is the best I could do with the time I had. 我只知道，這是我在有限時間裡能拿出的最好的結果。
“It's now part of the darkness nexus when it does, so you're totally screwed.”
一旦大賣，它就成了那團黑暗的一部分，所以你就徹底完蛋了。
把成功寫成陷阱，最後一詞收得又狠又好笑。
so you're totally screwed
想調侃某種怎麼做都錯的處境時用；正式場合別用 screwed。
So either way you are stuck. ／ The whole thing leaves you cornered.
口語
nexus 重讀，totally screwed 兩個詞都加重。
Follow the rule or break it, either way you're totally screwed. 守規矩也好，破規矩也好，反正你都完蛋。
“It's a fairly nerdy book, too, about loneliness.”
這也是一本相當書呆子氣的書，講的是孤獨。
用「書呆子氣」給孤獨去魅，作者自評反而成了最好的宣傳。
It's a fairly ... book about ...
自嘲作品或愛好時能用；對想被誇的人別這麼說，看物件。
It's a fairly quiet film, too, about grief.
中性
fairly 弱讀，nerdy book 重讀，loneliness 降調。
It's a fairly slow book, too, about growing up. 這也是本節奏挺慢的書，講的是長大。
I think that if there's a sort of sadness for people under 45, it has something to do with pleasure and achievement and entertainment. Like a sort of emptiness at the heart of what they thought was going on, and maybe I can hope that some parts of the book... speak to their nerve endings a little bit. Mm-hmm. If you quote any of this, by the way, you'd do me a great favor by saying... this is what I hope for the book, you know. This is what the book is trying to achieve. I don't pretend that it has.
我覺得，如果四十五歲以下的人有種悲傷，那跟享樂 成就和娛樂有關。 就像他們以為的生活核心裡，其實有種空虛。也許我能指望書裡的某些部分…… 能稍微觸到他們的神經末梢。——嗯。 順便說，如果你要引用這些，幫我個忙，就寫…… 這是我對這本書的期望，你知道。 這是這本書想達到的。我並不假裝它已經做到了。
When you're used to doing heavy-duty literary stuff that doesn't sell well, being human animals with egos, you accommodate that fact by the following equation. If something sells really well, gets a lot of attention, it's gotta be shit, right? Right. Of course. The ultimate irony is, if your thing starts selling well, gets a lot of attention, the very mechanism you used to shore yourself up... when your thing didn't sell well... Doesn't work anymore. It's now part of the darkness nexus when it does, so you're totally screwed. You know, you can't win.
當你習慣寫那種賣不動的嚴肅文學，而人又是帶著自我的動物， 你就會用下面這個公式來接受這個事實。 ——如果什麼東西賣得特別好、特別受關注，那肯定是垃圾，對吧？——對。當然。 最大的諷刺是，如果你的東西開始大賣、 開始備受關注，那個你用來撐住自己的機制…… 在你東西賣不動時用的那套……就不管用了。 一旦大賣，它就成了那團黑暗的一部分，所以你就徹底完蛋了。 你知道，你贏不了。
下一章 · 12come on to someone勾搭某人這場戲：為貝琪跟記者翻臉意思是「自我沉溺、只想著自己」。臺詞裡華萊士說害羞其實就是 self-absorbed，意思是一個人太沉溺於自己，反而讓別人難以相處。
burst on the scene。臺詞裡主持人介紹他 has burst on the literary scene，就是「橫空出現在文壇」，形容新人或作品突然爆紅時很好用。
shore yourself up。臺詞裡 the very mechanism you used to shore yourself up 就是「你用來撐住自己的那套機制」，指靠某種說法讓自己在低谷裡站穩。
意思是「怎麼做都不對、贏不了」。臺詞裡說完書賣不賣都難受，接一句 You know, you can't win，是無奈又帶笑的認輸。
意思是「報復、回敬某人」，多是開玩笑的語氣。臺詞裡說 I got, like, 20 years to get you back，就是「我有的是時間，二十年後再回敬你」。
