這場戲：離婚後一頭扎進巖壁
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貝絲離開後，湯米整個人都垮了，他開車到優勝美地山谷望著酋長巖，覺得 El Cap was all I had（酋長巖是我僅剩的一切）。於是他 throw yourself into（一頭扎進）一面沒人爬過的巖壁，用極限的挑戰把心痛擠出去。想學怎麼形容「拿一件事麻痺自己」，這兩句很準。
「酋長巖是我僅剩的一切」：all I had
all I had 我僅剩的一切way too hard 難太多了figure out 弄明白、找出來beat myself up 跟自己過不去
❝ 獨白 · 5 句 吊帳裡的自憐
從風暴到哭泣到尋找不存在的東西，五句把孤獨堆到頂點。
在吉爾吉斯斯坦事件後，貝絲和湯米之間生出一種依賴，可那不是真愛；後來她對另一個人動了心，離婚辦完，湯米說自己整個人都被擊垮了。他開車到優勝美地山谷的崖邊望著酋長巖，覺得 El Cap was all I had（酋長巖是我僅剩的一切）。為了不被痛苦壓住，他決定 throw yourself into（一頭扎進）那塊從沒人爬過的黎明牆，用高強度搜索路線 absorb yourself in（全身心投入）到裡面，好讓自己 feel sorry for myself（顧影自憐）的時間越少越好。一個不可能的挑戰，反而成了他活下去的方式。
A1–C2 是歐標等級。點一個等級後，比它高的卡片會變淡，播放到那裡不會自動暫停。
“My wife has left me.”
我妻子離開了我。
五個字，沒有修飾，把最重的事實直接擺出來最疼。
Someone has left me.
講一段結束的關係時用；對剛分手的人說自己的要好過說對方。
She walked out on me. ／ My partner and I are done.
中性
has left 連讀，句尾降調，不要拖長。
My best friend has left the company and I feel lost. 我最好的朋友離開了公司，我一下沒了方向。
“It felt like El Cap was all I had.”
那種感覺，好像酋長巖是我僅剩的一切。
把一座山說成最後的依靠，孤獨感一下有了形狀。
It felt like X was all I had.
說自己在低谷裡只剩某樣東西時用；對還在掙扎的人別輕用。
That job was all I had left. ／ It felt like there was nothing else.
literary
all I had 連讀，had 收得很輕。
After the move, it felt like that guitar was all I had. 搬完家之後，感覺那把吉他是我僅剩的東西。
“That's why it's called the Dawn Wall.”
所以它才叫黎明牆。
把名字的來歷講成一句畫面，詩意又不解釋太多。
That's why it's called ...
解釋某個名字或外號的來歷時用；日常隨口解釋事物也行。
That is where the name comes from. ／ Hence the name.
中性
That's why 連讀，Dawn Wall 兩個詞都重讀。
The first light hits that ridge, and that's why it's called the Dawn Wall. 第一縷光先照到那道巖脊，所以它才叫黎明牆。
“I couldn't just sit there and feel the pain.”
我沒法就那麼坐著，幹受那份痛。
just sit there 帶著自嘲，說明他寧可找苦吃也不肯躺著。
I couldn't just sit there and ...
說自己受不了乾等、必須行動時用；勸別人時這樣說會像催促。
I could not just do nothing. ／ Sitting still was not an option.
口語
couldn't just 連讀，feel the pain 放慢加重。
I couldn't just sit there and wait for the results. 我沒法乾坐在那兒等結果。
“You know, if you're heartbroken, just throw yourself into an impossible wall.”
你知道，要是心碎了，就把自己扔進一面爬不上的牆裡。
半開玩笑的處方，把療傷和犯傻合成一句黑色幽默。
throw yourself into something
鼓勵自己或朋友靠投入某事走出來時用；對重抑鬱的人別這樣說。
Throw yourself into your work. ／ Bury yourself in a project.
口語
throw yourself into 連讀，impossible wall 重音在 wall。
When the breakup hit, I threw myself into training. 分手那陣，我把自己投進了訓練裡。
“When you absorb yourself in some magnificent challenge, there is no space to be thinking about anything else.”
當你全身心撲在一件了不起的挑戰上，就沒餘地去想別的了。
把專注說成「沒有餘地的空間」，解釋了人為什麼需要大難題。
When you absorb yourself in X, there is no space for Y.
解釋為什麼忙碌能止痛時用；當作萬能建議甩給人會顯得輕飄。
Get lost in the work and the hurt fades. ／ A big goal leaves no room to brood.
中性
absorb yourself in 連讀，no space to 輕快帶過。
When you absorb yourself in a hard craft, there is no space for worry. 當你全身心撲在一門難手藝上，就沒餘地擔心了。
“She was the only person I had climbed with for, like, ten years.”
差不多十年裡，她是我唯一一起攀爬的人。
把十年感情縮成「唯一一起攀爬的人」，運動與愛綁在一起。
the only person I had ... with for ten years
回顧長期陪伴的人時用；說給新伴侶聽要小心比較。
She was my one partner for a decade. ／ I had climbed with nobody else for years.
中性
for, like, ten 輕讀，years 收尾放平。
He was the only person I had trained with for, like, six years. 差不多六年裡，他是我唯一一起訓練的人。
So I was sitting up there through this storm. My wife has left me. She was the only person I had climbed with for, like, ten years. In my portaledge at night, weeping and really feeling sorry for myself, trying to find this elusive thing that probably didn't even exist.
所以我就那麼待在上面，熬過這場風暴。 我妻子離開了我。 差不多十年裡，她是我唯一一起攀爬的人。 夜裡躺在吊帳裡，我哭著，特別顧影自憐， 想抓住一種大概根本不存在、難以捉摸的東西。
下一章 · 10pull for someone為某人加油這場戲：帶病攀上第十段意思是「一頭扎進、全力投入」某件事，常用來形容用工作、愛好來填滿自己。片裡說心碎了就把自己扔進一面爬不上的牆，就是這個用法。
all I had。all 是「全部」，I had 是「我擁有的」，合起來就是「我僅剩的一切」，語氣很重，適合寫孤獨或失落。
意思是「顧影自憐、自怨自艾」，指一個人沉浸在自憐裡。片裡說夜裡在吊帳中哭著 feeling sorry for myself，就是又難過又心疼自己。
absorb yourself in。absorb 是「吸收」，absorb yourself in something 就是把身心都浸進去，和 be absorbed in 意思相近。
way too hard。way 在這裡不是「路」，而是加強語氣，等於「太……了、……得過分」，way too hard 就是「難太多了」。
