trust in something
I believe in this more than I do this right now.Be Here Now · 2015 — 第 6 / 27 章 · 3'39" · B2
It looks like an argument about support, but both of them are naming the same fear. Andy says he feels alone in his choice; Vashti describes a dream of running out of time and admits she cannot fully trust. "I know all that's going on, hon. I'm your husband," he answers.
Andy says he is doing this on his own and needs support from the people around him; he feels judged. Vashti answers by laying out her own fear: a dream about running out of time, and the protective instinct of a mother who has to imagine raising their children alone. She admits she is conflicted, but says she supports him.
注目の表現
here's the thingmada protective streakmake sense to someone
このシーンの表現
here is the key point
Vashti keeps trying to explain herself, and this line pulls the talk back to her own point.
Here's the thing: nobody told us the deadline had moved.
crazy
a protective instinct
be understandable
survive a hard time
not enough of something
46 行のセリフに 26 件のメモ
trust in something
I believe in this more than I do this right now.comparative do: The verb do stands in for the repeated verb after more than.
I believe in this more than I do this right now.want backing
I just need some support on it from the people around me because I just feel like I'm...by oneself
I'm doing it on my own and people think I'm mad.crazy — British or Australian for crazy; in the US it often means angry.
I'm doing it on my own and people think I'm mad.here is the key point
Vashti keeps trying to explain herself, and this line pulls the talk back to her own point.
-No, but. -So here's the thing.miss the window
voice] Last night, I dreamt that you, we just didn't have time, and we'd left it too late.willing to consider
And I just remember thinking, "If we'd just been open to everything and tried everything, Jesse would have a dad."unreal conditional: It imagines a past that never happened, so the line carries pure regret.
And I just remember thinking, "If we'd just been open to everything and tried everything, Jesse would have a dad."stop thinking about it
and then you're saying, "You're not supporting me" and I'm trying to process that, get that silly thought out of my head because I don't believe it anyway, but it's in my whole body,The contraction you're usually reduces to a weak /jər/ in fast speech.
and then you're saying, "You're not supporting me" and I'm trying to process that, get that silly thought out of my head because I don't believe it anyway, but it's in my whole body,feel off
all day I'm going to be feeling strange.a protective instinct
As a mother of two, she says a protective streak rises in her and asks what if he really dies.
As a mother with two children, there's a protective streak in you that goes,relative clause: The clause that goes describes the instinct and sets up the words it says.
As a mother with two children, there's a protective streak in you that goes,devastate someone
And I think it would break Andy's heart to hear that I'm even considering that as an option, but I can't help it.be understandable
After pouring out her deepest fear, Vashti checks whether any of it makes sense to the person listening.
Does that make any sense to you?Link make and any so the phrase rushes together as one sound.
Does that make any sense to you?affectionate address — A warm term of address between partners, too intimate for formal settings.
I know all that's going on, hon. I'm your husband.more than anybody
I know you more than anyone.survive a hard time
Andy starts to explain how he copes, then lands on trust as the way he gets through it.
And I guess how I'm getting through it is to,The t in getting can flap toward a soft d in American speech.
And I guess how I'm getting through it is to,The final t in just often drops before trusting.
I'm just trusting, and...all things are possible
you know, in that space, then anything is possible.not enough of something
Vashti admits she senses a lack of trust inside herself but cannot name it.
I feel like there's a lack of trust or something in me and I'm not clear on what that is,noun clause subject: The whole clause whatever you do acts as the subject of the sentence.
I do trust that whatever you do is the right thing and you just have to know I support it whatever it is.provided that
As long as it doesn't harm anybody else, I support it, and you just need to know that.The disagreement is not about whether Vashti supports Andy; it is about what support can mean when someone is afraid. Andy hears doubt in the people around him and says so plainly — "I'm doing it on my own and people think I'm mad." Vashti's answer is not a refusal but a confession. She describes a dream in which it was already too late, and the protective instinct of a parent who might have to raise two children alone. "What if he did die?" she says, and admits she cannot explain that fear to him. Both sides are honest about the gap between them: Andy says his way through is trust, while Vashti admits there is a lack of trust in her and that it makes supporting him hard. The chapter ends not with a solution but with a promise — she supports whatever he chooses, as long as it harms no one.
I know all that's going on, hon. I'm your husband.Andy uses the plainest claim he has: intimacy as authority. He is saying he already understands her fear without being told, because that is what marriage means to him.
As long as it doesn't harm anybody else, I support it, and you just need to know that.Vashti's promise, with one condition attached. The condition is not really about harm; it is a way of staying honest, and of saying yes without pretending the fear is gone.
I'm doing it on my own and people think I'm mad.Andy's complaint, and the reason he needs support: he feels isolated in a choice others treat as reckless. 'Mad' carries both meanings, angry and crazy.
I know you more than anyone.The same reassurance, stripped to its simplest form. It answers her fear that she cannot be understood with the claim that she already is.
Support from the people around him. He feels he is doing this alone and that others think his choices are crazy, so he asks for the people close to him to back him.
That they will run out of time. She describes a dream in which treatment comes too late, and the fear of being left to raise their two children alone.
She admits there is a lack of trust in her that she cannot fully explain. That is why she feels conflicted about how to support him, even though she says she supports whatever he chooses.
With Vashti promising her support on one condition: as long as it harms nobody else, she supports whatever he does, and she says he only needs to know that.
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第 1 章take it day by dayAndy Shows His Kids the Sword
第 2 章that's how we rollAndy Wins the Role of Spartacus
第 3 章breeze throughAndy Whitfield's Cancer Returns
第 4 章second opinionAndy and Vashti Get a Second Opinion
第 5 章crossroadsAndy and Vashti Face a Crossroads
再生中 · 第 6 章here's the thingAndy Asks Vashti for Support
第 7 章good for someoneAndy Visits an Indian Astrologer
第 8 章go with the flowAndy Learns to Go With the Flow
第 9 章six packAndy Comes Home After Chemo
第 10 章lost my mindAndy's Bad Reaction to Chemo
第 11 章make a differenceAndy's Mum Comes to Help
第 12 章wipe outAndy Toasts Another Year of Adventure
第 13 章on the back burnerAndy's Long Road to Acting
第 14 章the big gunsAndy Mourns His Lost Career
第 15 章broach the subjectAndy Shaves His Hair With the Kids
第 16 章be there for someoneVashti Reads the Update to Andy
第 17 章have your cake and eat itHow Andy and Vashti Met
第 18 章bull in a china shopThe Doctor Reads Andy the Riot Act
第 19 章make or breakAndy Faces His Own Mortality
第 20 章made peace withDo What's in Your Heart
第 21 章wiped outAndy Turns Fear Into Love
第 22 章battle throughAndy's Scan Results and Radiation
第 23 章live with somethingAndy Gets Back to Work
第 24 章draw a line in the sandAndy Gets the Bad Scan Results
第 25 章buy timeDoctors Give Andy Three to Six Months
第 26 章at the end of the dayAndy and Vashti Move House
第 27 章broken like a butterflyAndy Says Goodbye to His Kids