totally exhausted
Andy opens the interview by admitting the treatment has left him drained.
I feel a bit wiped outBe Here Now · 2015 — 第 21 / 27 章 · 2'05" · B2
Andy admits he's now in the minority of patients who aren't responding to chemo, and calls it "truly frightening." Instead of staying in fear, he tries to reframe it: fear and anger are outward and draining, while "the opposite of that is love, compassion, and forgiveness" — inward and healing.
Nine months into treatment, Andy has landed in the minority of patients whose cancer isn't responding to chemo, and he's honest about how frightening that is. Rather than sit in the fear, he describes a deliberate turn: fear and anger burn outward and drain him, while love, compassion, and forgiveness move inward and heal. He adds that no one should wait until they're sick to think this way.
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wiped outpretty fuckedserenityconvert into
このシーンの表現
totally exhausted
Andy opens the interview by admitting the treatment has left him drained.
Two back-to-back shifts left me completely wiped out.
in a really bad state
inner calm
turn into
survive and come out the other side
should not delay doing something
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totally exhausted
Andy opens the interview by admitting the treatment has left him drained.
I feel a bit wiped outLink the d in wiped straight into out in practice.
I feel a bit wiped outthese past few days
the last two or three days, really lethargic and then...Blur and into a weak schwa sound after lethargic.
the last two or three days, really lethargic and then...energy, zest — Casual; keep it out of formal speech.
I don't have my usual self-motivating "oomph".nine months on
Here I am, nine months later.be one of the few
I'm now in the minority group where I'm not responding to chemo.relative clause: The where-clause defines which minority: the patients chemo no longer helps.
I'm now in the minority group where I'm not responding to chemo.find calm
I'm just trying to find some serenity, and some calm in it.be identical
I know that, you know, with fear and anger, which is probably the same thing, really,non-restrictive clause: The which-clause adds a side comment that fear and anger are really one thing.
I know that, you know, with fear and anger, which is probably the same thing, really,the reverse of it
And the opposite of that is love, compassion, and forgiveness.turn into
Andy goes on: if you can turn fear and anger into love and forgiveness, things change.
And if you can convert into that,something turned inward
that's an inward thing.something that heals
That's a... that's a healing thing.part of my growth here evolution means personal growth
And I guess it's part of my evolution to get through this.dummy subject: The it just holds the slot; the real subject is the to-infinitive that follows.
And I guess it's part of my evolution to get through this.Two th sounds collide; practise them slowly before linking.
Feel some warmth there, Andy?the spiritual part
Because I think that brings together the whole psychological, emotional, spiritual side of a person.should not delay doing something
Andy turns his illness into advice: don't wait for a crisis to start thinking this way.
You know you shouldn't wait to get cancer before you start to think that way.talked to me
Professor Gibson spoke to me on Tuesday afternoon.This is the film's most distilled statement of its philosophy, and it comes from a man with every reason to give in. Andy reports the news clinically — "I'm now in the minority group where I'm not responding to chemo" — then names the feeling underneath: "it's truly frightening." What he does with that fear is the scene's real subject. He argues that fear and anger are "outward" and depleting no matter how much energy you invest in them, while love, compassion, and forgiveness are "an inward thing," a healing one. It would sound like a platitude if it weren't someone in treatment saying it about himself. That's why the closing line lands: you shouldn't wait to get cancer before you start to think that way. The scene turns a terminal report into an argument for how to live now.
I'm now in the minority group where I'm not responding to chemo.The medical low point, stated plainly: his cancer has stopped responding to the main treatment, which puts him in a small, unlucky group.
And the opposite of that is love, compassion, and forgiveness.His answer to fear and anger: their opposite. The line sets up the inward/outward contrast that the rest of the scene rests on.
You know you shouldn't wait to get cancer before you start to think that way.The lesson he wants to pass on: the perspective he's found shouldn't require an illness to reach. It turns his situation into advice for others.
Here I am, nine months later.A marker of how long this has gone on, and how far it has taken him from where he started.
Because I think that brings together the whole psychological, emotional, spiritual side of a person.Why the inward turn matters to him: it treats a person as more than a body under treatment, pulling the mental and spiritual parts back together.
It isn't. He says he's in the minority of patients who don't respond to chemo, which is why the situation feels so frightening.
Because the clarity he's found came at a terrible price. He'd rather people adopt that mindset before a crisis forces it on them.
It means completely exhausted, with no energy left. Andy uses it to describe how the treatment has drained him.
He groups them together because both point outward and burn energy without helping him, whereas love and forgiveness turn inward and heal.
He wants to convert the fear into love, compassion, and forgiveness, framing that inward turn as part of his evolution to get through this.
次のチャプター · 第 22 章battle throughAndy's Scan Results and Radiation
第 1 章take it day by dayAndy Shows His Kids the Sword
第 2 章that's how we rollAndy Wins the Role of Spartacus
第 3 章breeze throughAndy Whitfield's Cancer Returns
第 4 章second opinionAndy and Vashti Get a Second Opinion
第 5 章crossroadsAndy and Vashti Face a Crossroads
第 6 章here's the thingAndy Asks Vashti for Support
第 7 章good for someoneAndy Visits an Indian Astrologer
第 8 章go with the flowAndy Learns to Go With the Flow
第 9 章six packAndy Comes Home After Chemo
第 10 章lost my mindAndy's Bad Reaction to Chemo
第 11 章make a differenceAndy's Mum Comes to Help
第 12 章wipe outAndy Toasts Another Year of Adventure
第 13 章on the back burnerAndy's Long Road to Acting
第 14 章the big gunsAndy Mourns His Lost Career
第 15 章broach the subjectAndy Shaves His Hair With the Kids
第 16 章be there for someoneVashti Reads the Update to Andy
第 17 章have your cake and eat itHow Andy and Vashti Met
第 18 章bull in a china shopThe Doctor Reads Andy the Riot Act
第 19 章make or breakAndy Faces His Own Mortality
第 20 章made peace withDo What's in Your Heart
再生中 · 第 21 章wiped outAndy Turns Fear Into Love
第 22 章battle throughAndy's Scan Results and Radiation
第 23 章live with somethingAndy Gets Back to Work
第 24 章draw a line in the sandAndy Gets the Bad Scan Results
第 25 章buy timeDoctors Give Andy Three to Six Months
第 26 章at the end of the dayAndy and Vashti Move House
第 27 章broken like a butterflyAndy Says Goodbye to His Kids