这场戏：被说成自己捂住嘴
第 20 章 · 共 22 章 · 3'40"
法庭上有人被追问嘴上那只手是谁的，连声说不，脑子已经乱了。对方忽然客气，她还是 fall for it（还是中招了）。对方递出 I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you（我明白那一晚对你又难熬、又让人搞不清）。先把人问糊涂，再承认那晚又难又乱。这种先压后哄，面试和谈判里都听得出来。
❝ 独白 · 11 句 什么，我自己的手？What, my own hand? 是反问否认
my own hand 什么，我自己的手？——反问否认not just because 不只是因为no extra hand 腾不出另一只空闲的手pinned down 被按住，身子动不了
盯着人问 How dare you?，就是质问你怎么敢
How dare you 质问你怎么敢fall for it 还是中招了get it over with 把难受的事赶紧了结I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you 我明白那一晚对你又难熬、又让人搞不清
证人席上，有人被追问捂在嘴上的那只手到底是谁的。她连声否认 What, my own hand?（什么，我自己的手？），下一句说那是朱利安的手。问题却不停，两只手若都按着手腕，就腾不出手捂嘴，那只手被说成是她自己的。她脑子乱了，一句 I can't catch up（理解跟不上节奏）。后来她想起一只手抓两只手腕，另一只手捂住嘴和鼻子。对方道了歉，忽然客气，她还是 fall for it（还是中招了）。问又开始，对方说出 I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you（我明白那一晚对你又难熬、又让人搞不清），先承认那晚又难又乱，再继续问。职场里这种先认难处再往下问，也要留神。
A1–C2 是欧标等级。点一个等级后，比它高的卡片会变淡，播放到那里不会自动暂停。
“'But no. No, no. That's not what happened. I didn't want to have sex. I felt sick.'”
不。不，不。事情不是那样的。我不想发生性关系。我当时觉得恶心。
先整句否定对方版本，再把不愿和恶心并置，拒绝不留缝。
先说不是那样，再说我不愿意。
对信任的人把性边界说死；公开场合或对上司别说得这么裸。
That's not how it was. ／ I didn't consent to that.
口语
No, no 两下短促，sick 落在句尾压低。
That's not what happened between us, and I didn't want to move in. 我们之间不是那样，我当时也不想搬到一起。
“'No, I did not put my hand on my mouth to protect Julian from my sour breath.”
不，我没有把手放在嘴上，去不让朱利安闻到我发酸的口气。
用完整句子退回对方塞来的动机，否认不缩成一声 no。
我并没有做某事去挡住某物。
正式澄清「我不是为了那个理由」时用；朋友闲聊别甩全句。
I did not do that for the reason you gave. ／ That was never why.
正式
did not 两个词都站稳，后面动机一口气带过。
I did not cancel the trip to spare you the bad news. 我取消行程，不是为了不让你听到坏消息。
“Or I could have removed my own hand from my own mouth and just screamed.”
或者我本可以把自己的手从自己的嘴上拿开，然后直接喊出来。
could have 把没做的事说成当时做得到，两只 own 把责任钉回她。
我本可以做一件事，然后直接做另一件。
用来转述别人怎么怪你当时没做；真心自责时别拿这套冷逻辑。
I could have just walked out. ／ Or I could have said something.
中性
could have 连着放轻，screamed 单独加重。
Or I could have closed the laptop and just walked home. 或者我本可以合上电脑，直接走回家。
“And why am I up here being made to look like a liar?”
那我为什么站在这儿，被弄得像一个说谎的人？
问句并不求回答，being made 把骗子从身份改成别人的手法。
为什么把我弄得像……？
被公开歪曲时对信任的人说；当众对上司说会像控诉全场。
Why am I the one who looks dishonest? ／ Don't make me look like the problem.
口语
why 抬高，liar 落下，整句不要带着笑。
Why am I being made to look like I leaked the file? 为什么把我说成是我泄露了文件？
“I feel so broken I want to go with him, just to get it over with.”
我已经碎了，只想顺着他，好让这件事快点结束。
碎了仍顺着他，不是认那一夜，是只求盘问快点结束。
我已经很碎，仍想顺着对方，只求结束。
只对最亲的人承认自己会为收场而让步；对上司或谈判别说。
I was so tired I nearly went along. ／ I would have agreed just to make it stop.
口语
broken 放沉，后半句放轻，像气一点点泄掉。
I felt so worn down I wanted to take his side, just to stop the shouting. 我已经耗尽了，只想站到他那边，好让争吵停下来。
“I want to be reeled in.”
我想被钓回来。
把撑不住说成愿意被钓上来，求结束，也承认自己会靠过去。
I want to be 再加一个被收回的状态。
只对最亲的人说自己撑不住、想被收场；对上司或谈判别用。
I can feel him reeling me in. ／ I just want this finished.
literary
reeled 放重，in 短收，像线被拉紧。
His soft voice made me want to be reeled in, just so the argument would stop. 他那点软话让我想被钓过去，只求这场争吵快点停。
But then all these questions about Julian's arms, his hands. Which one was holding down which of my wrists? I realise they're trying to say that if Julian had one hand on each of my wrists, then he had no extra hand to cover my mouth. So, I was mistaken. I wasn't actually pinned down and, of course, I could breathe. In fact, the hand on my mouth must have been mine, just saving Julian from my bad vomit breath. The QC is saying, if it was my own hand on my own mouth, as he suggests, then I could have used it to push Julian away. Or I could have removed my own hand from my own mouth and just screamed. My mind is messy. I can't catch up. 'No. No.'
可接着全是关于朱利安的胳膊、他的手的问题。 哪一只按着我的哪只手腕？ 我明白了，他们想说，如果朱利安两只手各按着我一只手腕， 他就没有多余的手来捂我的嘴。 所以，那就是说我记错了。 我其实没有被按住，而且当然，我能呼吸。 事实上，嘴上那只手一定是我的，只是不让朱利安闻到我吐过的难闻口气。 皇家大律师在说，如果捂在我自己嘴上的是我自己的手， 像他主张的那样，那我本来可以用它把朱利安推开。 或者我本来可以把自己的手从自己嘴上拿开，直接叫出来。 我脑子乱了。我跟不上。「不。不。」
下一章 · 21news to me我完全不知情这场戏：换房被说成动机不是。What, my own hand? 是反问，后面连着一串 No，下一句是 It was Julian's hand。若要肯定那是自己的手，才说 It was my own hand。这句反问不是「强调就是我的手」。
对方道完歉，忽然客气，她仍 fall for it（还是中招了）。依据是 like every victim I have cross-examined before, I fall for it。看过别人中招，轮到自己，还是会接住这点善意。
对方被盯着，连着两声 How dare you? How dare you?，就是质问你怎么敢。不是在商量。后一句问，为什么站在这儿被弄得像个骗子的是自己。
这句话紧跟在对方说「那是她自己的手、自己的嘴」之后，字面是就好像那是一场游戏。as if it were 用虚拟，表示好比是，不是承认那一夜就是游戏。谁说的，对白没标。接着有人说 A game?（一场游戏？），又说 Like the game of sex at chambers（像事务所里那种把性当成游戏的玩法）。chambers 这里指出庭律师的事务所。
原句是 I understand it was a terribly difficult and confusing night for you，意思是那一晚对你又难熬、又让人搞不清。对方先把这句话递出来，再继续问。要先表示理解，得把 it was 后面说完，例如 I understand it was a hard week，不能只背 I understand it was。
