这场戏：害怕仍答应出庭
第 14 章 · 共 22 章 · 3'22"
日子在警察、检控和法院手里：my life is in the hands of the police, the CPS, the court system（由别人掌控）。隐私、家人、朋友都押着，so much at stake（面临失去）。她还是说 Yes, I will give evidence in court（出庭陈述）。
❝ 独白 · 9 句 日子 in the hands of 别人，由别人掌控
in the hands of 由别人掌控，自己做不了主at stake 面临失去，一失败就赔掉give evidence 出庭陈述，提供证言
❝ 独白 · 9 句 pro bono 被用来加重好人，律师无偿做的公益工作
pro bono 律师无偿做的公益工作The law says 法律写明了不许这么做pretend it was consensual 事后硬说双方当时愿意
get away with it 仍不许毁了她，做了却能脱身不受罚
get you down 把人的情绪和劲头压垮get away with it 做了却能脱身不受罚gruff hug 又粗又紧的一下抱住
日子不在自己手里。有人说 in the hands of the police, the CPS, the court system（由别人掌控）。隐私、家人、朋友 so much at stake（一失败就赔掉）。她害怕，可心里那个女孩 fought and fought（拼了又拼）就是要被人看见，什么都不做会失去她，于是说 Yes, I will give evidence in court（出庭陈述）。妈妈来了，她却把错揽到自己身上，还抬出对方做很多 pro bono（律师无偿做的公益工作）。拥抱里有一句 Don't let them get you down（把人的情绪和劲头压垮），后面一句 Even if they get away with it（做了却能脱身不受罚）。日子被别人捏住时用前面两句；有人可能逃掉、自己还得撑住，用后面两句。
A1–C2 是欧标等级。点一个等级后，比它高的卡片会变淡，播放到那里不会自动暂停。
“But there is this person inside of me, that girl who fought and fought to be seen.”
可我身体里还有一个人，那个一次次硬撑、只为被看见的女孩。
重复fought，把硬撑说成还活在身体里的另一个自己。
someone inside of me who…
对自己或密友说还剩一口气，汇报和客套别用。
身体里还有个不肯停的人 ／ 里头那个还在撑的自己
literary
第一个fought重读，be seen稍抬。
There is still this person inside of me who wants the job done right. 我身体里还有一个人，仍想把这事做对。
“Look to your left, look to your right, who won't make it?”
看看你左边，看看你右边，谁会撑不下去？
左右一对再问谁掉队，像点名，压力落到在场的人身上。
Look left, look right, who…?
给同伴加压、训练开场能说，安慰丧亲或一对一别用。
看看两边，谁会先掉队 ／ 左右看看，谁撑不到底
中性
两个look to同调，who往上收。
Look to your left, look to your right, who is still standing in June? 看看左边，看看右边，谁能撑到六月？
“'You can't rape and then pretend it was consensual, can you, Mum?'”
你不能强奸了再装成双方同意，对吧，妈？
法律词直接问给母亲，反问把自责掐断，又用Mum拉回家。
You can't X and pretend Y.
对亲近的人戳破抵赖时说，法庭正式陈述别套这句。
做了再装没事，说得通吗 ／ 伤害完还说对方同意
口语
rape与consensual咬清，Mum前停一下。
You can't take the money and then pretend it was a gift, can you? 你不能拿了钱再装成是礼物，对吧？
“'Be your strong self! Don't let the bastards get you down!”
做回你那个强硬的自己！别让那些混蛋把你压垮！
先命令做回自己，再用粗口把对手收成一群，抱着说的。
Don't let them get you down.
熟人打气可以带脏字，正式慰问和客户场合别用。
别让那些人把你压下去 ／ 做回你硬的那一面
口语
strong self重读，down落到句尾。
Don't let them get you down just because the client shouted. 别因为客户吼了一声，就让他们把你压垮。
“'Even if they get away with it, you don't let them ruin our Tessa.'”
就算他们逃掉了，你也别让他们毁了我们的泰莎。
先承认也许赢不了，再把人从案子里拉回到名字。
Even if…, don't let them…
家人挚友输了仍要护人时说，对法官或公函别用。
就算他们脱了身，也别毁了你 ／ 赢不了，也别把人搭进去
口语
Even if轻起，Tessa放慢收住。
Even if they get away with it, do not let them ruin your record. 就算他们逃掉了，也别让他们毁了你的记录。
No, my life is in the hands of the police, the CPS, the court system. I have no control. So much at stake – my privacy, my family, my friends. Everything. I am scared. But there is this person inside of me, that girl who fought and fought to be seen. Look to your left, look to your right, who won't make it? She is brave, and if I do nothing, I... ..I think I could lose her. 'Yes. Yes, I will give evidence in court.'
不，我的生活捏在警察、皇家检控署、法院这套系统手里。 我做不了主。 押上的太多——我的隐私，我的家人，我的朋友。 一切。我害怕。 可我心里还有这么个人，那个拼了又拼、就是要被人看见的女孩。 看你左边，看你右边，谁走不到头？ 她勇敢，而我要是什么都不做，我…… ……我想我可能会失去她。 「是。是，我愿意出庭作证。」
'You fucked a guy on a sofa in work.' 'You invite him back to your home.' 'You're so drunk you even vomit.' Berating myself. 'You didn't scream or kick enough, you just froze. 'In the middle of it all, you just froze. What is wrong with you? 'No. You're pathetic. 'You let him sleep in your bed after he'd done that to you, 'while you cried in the shower? 'Julian, he is a good barrister, he does lots of pro bono work, 'what are you doing to him? 'What if he really thought you were consenting?'
「你在办公室的沙发上，跟一个男的干了。」 「你请他回你家。」「你醉到都吐了。」 我在骂自己。 「你没叫够，也没踢够，你只是僵住了。 「事情正发生的时候，你却僵住了。你到底有什么毛病？」 「不。你真窝囊。」 「他对你做了那种事之后，你还让他睡在你床上，你自己在淋浴里哭？」 「朱利安，他是个好大律师，他做很多不收费的活，你在对他做什么？ 「万一他真以为你同意了呢？」
下一章 · 15psyche myself up先把自己的劲拧上这场戏：出庭被说成骗子就是由别人掌控，自己做不了主。这句是 my life is in the hands of the police, the CPS, the court system，下一句就是 I have no control。
就是面临失去，一失败就赔掉。这句是 So much at stake – my privacy, my family, my friends，前面刚说生活在警察、检控和法院手里。
说 make it。这句是 Look to your left, look to your right, who won't make it，问的是谁走不到头、谁不被淘汰。
字面是律师无偿做的公益工作。她用它给朱利安加重好人的分量：he is a good barrister, he does lots of pro bono work，并怪自己 what are you doing to him。
说 Don't let them get you down。拥抱里这句接在 Be your strong self 后面，意思是别让那些人把你的劲头压垮，下一句才是 Even if they get away with it。
说 get away with it。拥抱里那句是 Even if they get away with it, you don't let them ruin our Tessa，意思是就算他们逃掉，也不许毁掉泰莎。
