penchant for癖好

I was, uh, living with this fabulous, interesting woman named Harriet Harmon. I'm ashamed to say this, but Harriet Harmon remains... was the great love of my life. You know, it was a verypassionate relationship. You know, I loved her very, very intensely, and, you know, she... We just made love everywhere. She was, she was sexually carnivorous, you know? She-She... We did it in stalled elevators and in bushes and people's houses, at parties in the bathroom. And, I hate to tell you, in the back of cars, she'd-she'd put a coat on our laps and then suddenly grab my hand and stick it between her legs. I mean, she was really something, and she... You know, she was... she was highly, highly libidinous. You know what I mean? She used to... She wanted to make love with other women, and she used to... she got into dope for a while. She would break that thing you sniff when she'd have her orgasm. And, you know, I was... For me, I was getting a real education. And I was, you know, fascinated. I was just absolutely nuts about her. And, um, you know, ultimately she wound up in an institution. I mean, it's not funny. It was a very sad thing. She was, you know, great but-but nuts.

我當時，呃，和一個叫哈麗雅特·哈蒙的出色、有趣的女人住在一起。 說出來我都覺得丟臉，可哈麗雅特·哈蒙仍然…… 是我一生的至愛。 你知道，那是一段非常熾熱的關係。 你知道，我愛她愛得非常、非常強烈，而且，你知道，她……我們簡直到處都做愛。 她是，她在性上非常貪婪，你知道嗎？ 她——她……我們在卡住的電梯裡做過，灌木叢裡、別人家裡，派對上的衛生間裡。 而且，我真不想說這個，在汽車後座，她會——她會在我們腿上蓋件外套，然後突然抓住我的手，塞進她兩腿之間。 她會把外套鋪在我們腿上，然後突然抓住我的手，塞到她兩腿之間。 我是說，她真的很猛，而且她…… 你知道，她……她性慾強得不得了。 你懂我意思吧？她以前…… 她想和其他女人做愛，而且她以前……有一陣子還沾上了毒品。 她高潮的時候，會把那種用來吸的東西掰開。 而且，你知道，我當時……對我來說，那才是真正上了一課。 而且我，你知道，完全被迷住了。我對她簡直神魂顛倒。 而且，嗯，你知道，她最後進了精神病院。 我是說，這一點都不好笑。那是一件很悲哀的事。 她是，你知道，很棒，可是——可是瘋了。

See, I've always had, um, this penchant for what I call kamikaze women, because they... I call 'em kamikazes because they, you know, they crash their plane. They're self-destructive. But they crash it into you, and you die along with them. Now, soon as there's a challenge, as soon as there's very little chance of it working out, or no chance, or there's gonna be hurdles or obstacles, something clicks into my mind. Maybe that's because I'm a writer. But some dramatic or aesthetic component becomes right, and I go after that person. And there's a certain dramatic ambience that... that's almost as if I'm in... I fall in love with the person, in love with the situation in some way. And, um, of course, it has not worked out well for me. It has not been great, and, um...

你看，我一直有種癖好，我稱之為神風女人，因為她們…… 我叫她們神風，因為她們，你知道，會把自己的飛機撞上去。 她們自我毀滅。可飛機會朝你撞過來，你也跟她們一起死。 你看，只要一有挑戰，只要這段關係幾乎沒可能成，或者完全沒可能，或者會有障礙、坎坷，我腦子裡就咔地一聲對上了。 也許是因為我是個作家。 可一旦某種戲劇性或審美的成分對上了，我就會去追那個人。 而且有一種特定的戲劇氛圍…… 就好像我置身於……我愛上那個人，某種程度上也愛上那種情境。 而且，嗯，當然，這對我來說從來沒有好結果。 一直都不怎麼樣，而且，嗯……