這場戲：坦白吊扇自殺往事
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傑克遜跟艾莉坦白童年往事：他拿皮帶掛在吊扇上想 do the deed（動手做那件事），吊扇卻整個從天花板掉下來，額頭劃了一大口子。多年後兩人在家，艾莉問他 without the booze（不喝酒之後）還會不會想回來，他只說 I wanna be with you（我想跟你在一起）。想開口說一件難以啟齒的過去，就學這段。
❝ 獨白 · 13 句 鮑比講吊扇舊事
越平靜越重，把最疼的童年講得像在說別人的事。
「沒了酒你還會不會想回家」：without the booze
come home 回家、回來住without the booze 不喝酒之後stick with you 守著你、一直陪著
傑克遜跟艾莉講起童年的一件往事：父親迷戀布魯斯，哥哥在外打拼，家裡常常只有他和父親。他拿一條皮帶掛在吊扇上，想 do the deed（動手做那件事），吊扇卻整個從天花板掉下來，額頭劃開一大口子——更讓他氣的是父親當時喝醉了，根本沒發現。後來兩人在家，艾莉一邊說查理在門口等著，一邊問 without the booze（不喝酒之後）他還會不會回家；他說只想跟她在一起，還說 I need to stick with you（我得跟著你）。最後兩人翻出一首寫好的歌，說它是自然而然 fell out of me（冒出來）的。
A1–C2 是歐標等級。點一個等級後，比它高的卡片會變淡，播放到那裡不會自動暫停。
“I wondered, without the booze, if you would want to come home.”
我在想，要是沒有酒，你還會想回家嗎？
把最怕問的問題藏進一句輕描淡寫的猜想，booze 一詞點破兩人真正的坎。
I wondered, without ..., if you would ...
對親近的人試探真心時用；在吵架當口說會被聽成指責，慎用。
I keep wondering what you'd want without it. ／ Would you still want me sober?
中性
without the booze 放慢，want 重讀。
I wondered, without the job, if you would stay. 我在想，要是沒這份工作，你還會留下嗎？
“Whatever I want? I wanna be with you.”
問我想要什麼？我只想和你在一起。
先反問再給出最簡單的答案，一句 I wanna be with you 把整段猶豫都收住。
Whatever I want? I wanna ...
對伴侶表白、打消對方不安時用；沒打算兌現時別用，會更傷人。
All I want is you. ／ You're the one I want.
口語
Whatever 上挑，wanna 輕快，with you 放柔。
Whatever I want? I want us to stay like this. 問我想要什麼？我只想我們一直這樣。
“I was more mad about that than it not working.”
比起沒成功，我更氣的是那一下。
用 more mad about A than B 把荒唐的委屈說得平靜，黑色幽默全在語氣裡。
I was more ... about that than ...
講往事、自嘲的時候用；對剛出事的人說會顯得輕佻，別用。
I was angrier about that than about it failing. ／ The cut bothered me more than the outcome.
口語
more 重讀，than it not working 放慢。
I was more upset about the stain than the broken cup. 比起杯子碎了，我更心疼那塊汙漬。
“That fucking fan stayed on the floor for about half a year.”
那破吊扇在地上躺了差不多半年。
把最黑暗的自殺往事收在一個躺了半年的吊扇上，黑色幽默裡全是沒人管的孤獨。
That X stayed there for about Y.
用一句荒誕細節講自己的舊傷、化解沉重時用，熟人之間可以；對剛認識的人說太重，要看時機。
It sat there for months, untouched. ／ Nobody moved it for half a year.
口語
fucking fan 連讀，stayed on the floor 放慢，half a year 收尾下沉。
That broken shelf stayed on the floor for about half a year. 那個破架子在地上躺了差不多半年。
He was big into the blues, so... 'Cause you gotta figure, it's just me and him all day long. My brother's out there tryin' to make something of himself. So I took one of his belts. I put it around the ceiling fan and tried to do the deed. The whole fucking fan came out of the ceiling. Had a big cut on my fucking forehead. I was more mad about that than it not working. And he didn't even notice. He didn't even fucking notice. - 'Cause he was drunk? - Yeah. That fucking fan stayed on the floor for about half a year.
他特別迷布魯斯，所以…… 你想啊，整天就我和他兩個人。 我哥在外頭闖自己的路。 所以我拿了他一條皮帶。 我把它掛在吊扇上 想一了百了。 結果那破吊扇整個從天花板上掉了下來。 我額頭上劃了老大一道口子。 比起沒死成，我更氣這個。 他根本沒發現。 他他媽的根本沒發現。 - 因為他喝醉了？ - 對。 那破吊扇在地上躺了差不多半年。
下一章 · 13come with me跟我一起來這場戲：經紀人勸退妻子挽留字面是「做那件事」，具體指什麼看語境，常指下決心動手、把事辦了，有時也指男女那檔子事。這裡說的是傑克當年想結束自己。
be big into something，比如 he was big into the blues（他特別迷布魯斯）。比 like 更口語，程度也更重。
booze 是口語、俗話，指酒，也可以指喝酒這件事，日常聊天常用；alcohol 更正式。without the booze 就是「不喝酒之後」。
不是字面的粘。stick with someone 是「守在某人身旁、一直陪著、不離開」。I need to stick with you 就是「我得跟著你、不離開你」。
字面是「從我身上掉出來」，實際指想法、文字自然而然冒出來、脫口而出。寫歌寫作卡殼時，就能說 it just fell out of me。
You are gonna come back, right? 或者 You gonna come home when you're done? 句尾的 right 就是「對吧」，用來求一個確認，帶點不安。
