go with the flow顺其自然

I already knew that the next year was going to be kind of tough with treatment and recovery. And I guess the whole point of the chart in astrology is to... to avoid the danger that's not yet come. That's what they keep saying. "To avoid the danger that has not yet come." People have always been talking to me about don't paddle upstream, you know? Go with the flow. And I was like, "I totally get that." But it wasn't until I was actually in the Ganges that I sort of went... "Of course. It's going that way, anyway. Go with it." And if there's a rock, paddle around it. As it comes up, you can see the danger and you can navigate around it. And so it was a really nice thing to go, "I'm just going to go with the flow." You can't be questioning why. Just accept the things you can't change and do something about the things you can. The whole experience from my point of view was quite surprising. I feel, personally, so much better than when I came that I have to believe that it's done the same for him. I didn't want to do chemotherapy for a long time. See you soon. But my destiny has assured whatever I do. I'll do the chemotherapy to kill the cancer and I will use everything I've learned along the way to rebalance me and to help me for the rest of my life. It'll be interesting to see how it goes when I get home, back in... back in the mentalness of the west.

我早就知道，接下来这一年要治疗、要康复，会挺难熬。 我猜占星里那张星盘的意义，就是…… 避开还没到来的危险。 他们一直这么说。 “避开尚未到来的危险。” 人们一直跟我说，别逆着水往上划， 懂吗？要顺流而下。 我当时想，“这我完全懂。” 可直到我真的泡在恒河里，我才一下子…… “当然了，水本来就是往那边流的。 顺着它走就是了。” 要是前面有块石头，就绕着划过去。 它一冒出来，你就能看见危险，然后绕开它。 所以能说出“我就顺其自然吧”，那感觉真好。 你别去追问为什么。 接受你改变不了的事，再对能改变的事做点什么。 在我看来，这整段经历相当出乎意料。 就我个人来说，感觉比刚来时好太多了，我只能相信它对他也有同样的作用。 有很长一段时间，我都不想做化疗。 回头见。 可不管我做什么，我的命运早有定数。 我会去做化疗，把癌症除掉， 我会用这一路学到的一切，重新平衡自己，帮自己过好余生。 等我回到家、回到……会是怎样，还挺让人好奇的。 回到西方那种疯魔劲儿里。