“'But this is not a car accident, or a home invasion.”
She refuses two neat categories so the harm cannot be filed as a dispute about details.
Formal
Chapter 22 of 22 · 4'30"
On the surface she is telling why her evidence will not arrive in a tidy package. Underneath she is questioning the test she used to use on women. "can we keep using it as the litmus test of credibility?" Consistency can stay. What she challenges is treating it as the one test that decides whether a woman is believed.
❝ Monologue · 36 lines She no longer stands at the bar
Can consistency stay the litmus test
❝ Monologue · 12 lines Once seen, it cannot be unseen
Someone in court finds the officer's hand over her mother's, looks up at Julian's men in the gallery, and speaks to the judge. She used to stand at the bar. Now she is a witness, a complainant, and a victim. She says the experience is not a neat parcel, asks if consistency can remain the litmus test of credibility, and says the law spins on the wrong axis.
The speech keeps confessing the lawyer she used to be. She questioned women on the assumption that evidence arrives "in a clean, logical package," and she treated inconsistencies as proof of doubt. The same standard now fails her own memory: the rape and the perpetrator stay vivid, the peripheral details do not. So "can we keep using it as the litmus test of credibility?" is not a plea to jettison consistency. She says the law cannot drop it entirely. She is asking why a form built for car accidents decides whether a woman is lying. After naming what older courts refused to see, marital rape and the distinct way battered women fight, "we cannot unsee" presses the point. A law that "spins on the wrong axis" calls a woman's experience untrue when it "does not fit the male-defined system of truth," and keeps interrogating victims instead of its own assumptions.
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“'But this is not a car accident, or a home invasion.”
She refuses two neat categories so the harm cannot be filed as a dispute about details.
Formal
“'But when a woman has been violated, it is a corrosive wound.”
Calling it a corrosive wound keeps the injury active instead of treating it as a closed incident.
literary
“'can we keep using it as the litmus test of credibility?”
The question puts a routine professional test in the dock and asks if it should still decide belief.
Formal
“'The law of sexual assault, it spins on the wrong axis.”
The axis image makes the bias structural: the system can keep moving and still face the wrong way.
literary
“'Yet once we see, I mean, we cannot unsee, can we?”
The little aside sounds like live speech, then the tag question closes the exit of pretended ignorance.
Informal
“'We don't interrogate the law's own assumptions, 'instead we persist on interrogating the victims.”
The word instead swings the interrogation from the rule book onto the people already hurt.
Formal
'Your Honour, I am here in a unique position. 'Usually, I stand at the bar, 'but now I am in this courtroom as a witness, a complainant, a victim. 'As a barrister, I have questioned women in sexual assault cases 'on the assumption that evidence can be delivered in a clean, logical package, 'and now I have seen from my own attempts here that it cannot be. 'In all of my professional life, 'I have participated in a system that has done this to women, 'and now I know it is not right. 'It is not reasonable, because now I know, 'from my own life, both as a woman and a lawyer, 'that the lived experience of sexual assault, 'it is not remembered in a neat, consistent, scientific parcel. 'And it's because of that, the law often finds evidence "unbelievable". 'So, I understand a witness can be mistaken in their evidence. 'I have suggested it time and time again. 'But this is not a car accident, or a home invasion. 'This is rape. 'It's a crime against the person and now I know. 'You know, when a woman says "no", when her actions say "no", 'it is not a subtle, unreadable thing at all. 'Yet before this, I too, I would suggest that she was mistaken. 'But when a woman has been violated, it is a corrosive wound. 'It is one that starts with terror and pain deep into the body. 'It then overtakes the mind, the soul. 'Yet before this, I too, I would suggest that "she was confused". 'I mean, the message is, if we do not deliver our evidence neatly 'in a clear linear story, with consistency in recall, then we are lying. 'Yet before this, I would point out inconsistencies as proof of doubt. 'I would tell the jury they couldn't possibly be sure. 'As a lawyer I know, I know, 'the law, it cannot jettison consistency entirely, but in sexual assault cases, 'can we keep using it as the litmus test of credibility? 'Because, as a victim, let me tell you 'the rape and the perpetrator, they are vividly recalled. 'The peripheral details, not so clearly. 'If a woman is rattled by having to relive the nightmare in court, 'if a woman's experience of rape is not as the court likes it to be, 'then we conclude that she is prone to exaggeration 'and it's because of this she is so often disbelieved. 'So here in court, I want to call it out.'
'There was a time, not so long ago, 'when courts like this did not see non-consensual sex in marriage as rape, 'did not see that battered women, 'they fight back in a manner distinct from the way that men fight. 'Yet once we see, I mean, we cannot unsee, can we? 'Now I see from my own experience 'that we have got it all wrong when it comes to sexual assault. 'We don't interrogate the law's own assumptions, 'instead we persist on interrogating the victims. 'The law is an organic thing. It is defined by us. 'It is constructed by us, in light of our experiences. 'All of ours, so there are no excuses any more. 'It must change because the truth is that one in three women are sexually assaulted 'and their voices, they need to be heard, they need to be believed 'in order for justice to be done.'
She accepts that a witness can be mistaken, and that she used to say so time and time again. This, she says, is rape, a crime against the person. The lived experience is not remembered in a neat, consistent, scientific parcel, so the old doubt does not transfer.
No. She says the law cannot jettison consistency entirely. She asks only whether sexual assault cases can keep using it as the litmus test of credibility. The rape and the perpetrator, she adds, are vividly recalled. The peripheral details are not.
She says a woman's experience of sexual assault does not fit the male-defined system of truth, so it cannot count as truth and there cannot be justice. She adds that the law has been shaped by generations of men.
Courts like this, she has just said, did not see non-consensual sex in marriage as rape, and did not see that battered women fight back in a manner distinct from men. Once that is seen, it cannot be unseen.