Kamikaze Women Theory 神风女人论IMDb ↗

I was, uh, living with this fabulous, interesting woman named Harriet Harmon. I'm ashamed to say this, but Harriet Harmon remains... was the great love of my life. You know, it was a verypassionate relationship. You know, I loved her very, very intensely, and, you know, she... We just made love everywhere. She was, she was sexually carnivorous, you know? She-She... We did it in stalled elevators and in bushes and people's houses, at parties in the bathroom. And, I hate to tell you, in the back of cars, she'd-she'd put a coat on our laps and then suddenly grab my hand and stick it between her legs. I mean, she was really something, and she... You know, she was... she was highly, highly libidinous. You know what I mean? She used to... She wanted to make love with other women, and she used to... she got into dope for a while. She would break that thing you sniff when she'd have her orgasm. And, you know, I was... For me, I was getting a real education. And I was, you know, fascinated. I was just absolutely nuts about her. And, um, you know, ultimately she wound up in an institution. I mean, it's not funny. It was a very sad thing. She was, you know, great but-but nuts.

我当时，呃，和一个叫哈丽雅特·哈蒙的出色、有趣的女人住在一起。 说出来我都觉得丢脸，可哈丽雅特·哈蒙仍然…… 是我一生的至爱。 你知道，那是一段非常炽热的关系。 你知道，我爱她爱得非常、非常强烈，而且，你知道，她……我们简直到处都做爱。 她是，她在性上非常贪婪，你知道吗？ 她——她……我们在卡住的电梯里做过，灌木丛里、别人家里，派对上的卫生间里。 而且，我真不想说这个，在汽车后座，她会——她会在我们腿上盖件外套，然后突然抓住我的手，塞进她两腿之间。 我是说，她真的很猛，而且她…… 你知道，她……她性欲强得不得了。 你懂我意思吧？她以前…… 她想和其他女人做爱，而且她以前……有一阵子还沾上了毒品。 她高潮的时候，会把那种用来吸的东西掰开。 而且，你知道，我当时……对我来说，那才是真正上了一课。 而且我，你知道，完全被迷住了。我对她简直神魂颠倒。 而且，嗯，你知道，她最后进了精神病院。 我是说，这一点都不好笑。那是一件很悲哀的事。 她是，你知道，很棒，可是——可是疯了。

See, I've always had, um, this penchant for what I call kamikaze women, because they... I call 'em kamikazes because they, you know, they crash their plane. They're self-destructive. But they crash it into you, and you die along with them. Now, soon as there's a challenge, as soon as there's very little chance of it working out, or no chance, or there's gonna be hurdles or obstacles, something clicks into my mind. Maybe that's because I'm a writer. But some dramatic or aesthetic component becomes right, and I go after that person. And there's a certain dramatic ambience that... that's almost as if I'm in... I fall in love with the person, in love with the situation in some way. And, um, of course, it has not worked out well for me. It has not been great, and, um...

你看，我一直有种癖好，我称之为神风女人，因为她们…… 我叫她们神风，因为她们，你知道，会把自己的飞机撞上去。 她们自我毁灭。可飞机会朝你撞过来，你也跟她们一起死。 你看，只要一有挑战，只要这段关系几乎没可能成，或者完全没可能，或者会有障碍、坎坷，我脑子里就咔地一声对上了。 也许是因为我是个作家。 可一旦某种戏剧性或审美的成分对上了，我就会去追那个人。 而且有一种特定的戏剧氛围…… 就好像我置身于……我爱上那个人，某种程度上也爱上那种情境。 而且，嗯，当然，这对我来说从来没有好结果。 一直都不怎么样，而且，嗯……