这场戏：说爱是利用又忆旧事
第 10 章 · 共 27 章 · 4'29"
圣玛丽病房里，凯瑟琳平静地向医生讲姑妈维姨如何为塞巴斯蒂安毁掉一生：她 gave up everything（放弃一切），连病危的丈夫也不管；她冷冷追问 Isn't that what love is? Using people?（爱不就是利用人吗？）。想学不动声色地说出最狠的话，这一分钟值得反复听。
❝ 独白 · 7 句 自嘲「用来被利用的」：to be used
because of 因为、由于took vows 立誓受戒、发誓入教had no choice 别无选择to be used 用来被利用的
❝ 独白 · 19 句 舞会那一夜的回忆
从寄存外套讲到橡树下的呼救，句句短促，像一边回忆一边重新经历。
故事发生在圣玛丽，凯瑟琳的病房：她向库克罗维茨医生讲起死去的塞巴斯蒂安。她说 Sebastian was a vocation, not a man（塞巴斯蒂安是一种使命，不是一个人），姑妈 Vi 从一开始就 hooked（上了瘾），为他 gave up everything（放弃一切），连丈夫也丢下。塞巴斯蒂安一度去西藏出家，姑妈竟追到茅屋里 took vows（受戒）；丈夫病危要见她，她却 She chose to let her husband die alone（选择让丈夫一个人死去）。凯瑟琳平静地说：我们都不由自主，只是 to be used（用来被利用的）——因为 Isn't that what love is? Using people?（爱不就是利用人吗？）。最后她讲起最早的记忆：狂欢节舞会的夜晚。想学冷到骨子里的英文独白，这些台词很耐读。
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“Sebastian was a vocation, not a man.”
塞巴斯蒂安是一种使命，不是一个人。
把一个人说成一种使命，一句就解释了所有人为何为他献身。
X was a vocation, not a Y
形容某人让旁人全情投入时用；正式悼词里这样说不妥。
He was more a calling than a person. ／ Sebastian wasn't a man, he was a cause.
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vocation 重音在中间，not a man 三词放慢，句尾下沉。
The band was a vocation, not a hobby, for those fans. 对那群歌迷来说，这支乐队是信仰，不是爱好。
“Isn't that what love is? Using people?”
爱不就是这样吗？不就是利用人吗？
用一个反问把爱重新定义成利用，刺得人没法反驳。
Isn't that what X is?
想逼对方承认某种残酷定义时用；安慰失恋的人时说会太狠。
Isn't that exactly what love is? ／ That's what love is, isn't it?
中性
Isn't that 连读，what love is 重音在 love，句尾上扬反问。
Isn't that what friendship is? Showing up? 友谊不就是这样吗？就是人到场。
“She chose to let her husband die alone.”
她选择让丈夫一个人死去。
把最重的决定压进一个 chose，不辩解也不控诉，只剩事实。
She chose to let ...
陈述一个冷酷的选择时用；对当事人这样说等于宣判。
She decided to leave him to die by himself. ／ She let him die rather than leave Sebastian.
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chose to 轻读，die alone 放慢，句尾降调收住。
She chose to let the deal fall apart rather than lie. 她宁可让交易黄掉，也不肯撒谎。
“It's as if my life began and ended that night.”
就好像我的人生开始又结束于那一夜。
用“开始和结束都在同一夜”把初恋与命运的重量压进一句轻叹。
It's as if my life began and ended that night.
回忆改变一生的那个夜晚时用；日常小事说会显得太戏剧化。
It's like my life started and finished that night. ／ As if everything before and after that night doesn't count.
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as if 连读，began and ended 一顿，that night 放慢收尾。
It's as if my whole life began that night. 就好像我整个人生都是从那一夜开始的。
Once, Sebastian decided to give up the torments of this world... ...and become a Buddhist monk. That was in Tibet. He shaved his head, was given a wooden bowl and was happy. Till Aunt Vi came. Why? What did she do? Lived in a hut, even took vows, or whatever women do. Anything to be near him, to get to him, to make him come home.
有一次，塞巴斯蒂安决定抛下这世上的种种折磨…… ……去当一名佛教僧人。那是在西藏。 他剃了头，得了一只木钵，过得很快活。 直到维姨来了。 为什么？她做了什么？ 她住进一间茅屋，还受了戒，反正女人能做的她都做了。 只要能靠近他、接近他、让他回家，什么都肯做。
At the ball... I was taken there by some boy who got too drunk to stand. I wanted to leave. My coat was in the cloakroom. They couldn't find the check for it, so I said, "Let it go"... ...and started out for a taxi. Then somebody took my arm and said: "I'll drive you home." As we left, he took off his coat and put it around my shoulders... ...and then I looked at him. I don't think I've ever seen him before then, really. He took me home. But he took me another place first. Near the Dueling Oaks at the end of Esplanade Street. We stopped. I asked what for. He didn't answer. Just struck a match to light a cigarette... ...and I looked at him, and I knew what for. I think I got out of the car before he got out of the car, and we... ...walked through the wet grass toward the great misty oaks as if... ...as if somebody were... ...calling for help there.
在舞会上…… 带我去的是个男孩，他喝得站都站不住。 我想走。我的外套寄存在衣帽间。 他们找不到存衣牌，我就说：「算了」…… ……然后出去叫出租车。 这时有人拉住我的胳膊，说：「我送你回家。」 我们出门时，他脱下外套披在我肩上…… ……然后我看了他一眼。 我想在那之前，我从没见过他，真的。 他送我回家。但他先带我去了另一个地方。 在埃斯普拉纳德街尽头，决斗橡树附近。 我们停了车。我问为什么。 他没回答。 只是划了根火柴点烟…… ……我看着他，就明白为什么了。 我想我比他先下的车，然后我们…… ……穿过湿漉漉的草地，走向那些雾蒙蒙的大橡树，好像…… ……好像有人…… ……在那儿呼救。
下一章 · 11make a scene当众大闹一场这场戏：冲回舞会大闹一场指「使命、天职」，即一个人被召唤去做的事。台词说 Sebastian was a vocation, not a man，就是说塞巴斯蒂安更像一种使命，而非普通人。
gave up everything。give up 是「放弃」，She gave up everything for Sebastian 就是「她为塞巴斯蒂安放弃了一切」，连丈夫也不要了。
hooked。原意是「上钩」，引申为「上瘾、被牢牢吸引」。台词说她 was hooked from the beginning，就是「从一开始就离不开了」。
指「立誓受戒、发誓入教」。took vows 就是发下宗教誓愿；姑妈追到西藏的茅屋里也受了戒，只为靠近塞巴斯蒂安。
意思是「算了、随它去吧」。凯瑟琳在舞会上丢了存衣牌，就说 Let it go，不再去找外套，语气干脆又带着无所谓。
