这场戏：坦白吊扇自杀往事
第 12 章 · 共 13 章 · 3'36"
杰克逊跟艾莉坦白童年往事：他拿皮带挂在吊扇上想 do the deed（动手做那件事），吊扇却整个从天花板掉下来，额头划了一大口子。多年后两人在家，艾莉问他 without the booze（不喝酒之后）还会不会想回来，他只说 I wanna be with you（我想跟你在一起）。想开口说一件难以启齿的过去，就学这段。
❝ 独白 · 13 句 鲍比讲吊扇旧事
越平静越重，把最疼的童年讲得像在说别人的事。
「没了酒你还会不会想回家」：without the booze
come home 回家、回来住without the booze 不喝酒之后stick with you 守着你、一直陪着
杰克逊跟艾莉讲起童年的一件往事：父亲迷恋布鲁斯，哥哥在外打拼，家里常常只有他和父亲。他拿一条皮带挂在吊扇上，想 do the deed（动手做那件事），吊扇却整个从天花板掉下来，额头划开一大口子——更让他气的是父亲当时喝醉了，根本没发现。后来两人在家，艾莉一边说查理在门口等着，一边问 without the booze（不喝酒之后）他还会不会回家；他说只想跟她在一起，还说 I need to stick with you（我得跟着你）。最后两人翻出一首写好的歌，说它是自然而然 fell out of me（冒出来）的。
A1–C2 是欧标等级。点一个等级后，比它高的卡片会变淡，播放到那里不会自动暂停。
“I wondered, without the booze, if you would want to come home.”
我在想，要是没有酒，你还会想回家吗？
把最怕问的问题藏进一句轻描淡写的猜想，booze 一词点破两人真正的坎。
I wondered, without ..., if you would ...
对亲近的人试探真心时用；在吵架当口说会被听成指责，慎用。
I keep wondering what you'd want without it. ／ Would you still want me sober?
中性
without the booze 放慢，want 重读。
I wondered, without the job, if you would stay. 我在想，要是没这份工作，你还会留下吗？
“Whatever I want? I wanna be with you.”
问我想要什么？我只想和你在一起。
先反问再给出最简单的答案，一句 I wanna be with you 把整段犹豫都收住。
Whatever I want? I wanna ...
对伴侣表白、打消对方不安时用；没打算兑现时别用，会更伤人。
All I want is you. ／ You're the one I want.
口语
Whatever 上挑，wanna 轻快，with you 放柔。
Whatever I want? I want us to stay like this. 问我想要什么？我只想我们一直这样。
“I was more mad about that than it not working.”
比起没成功，我更气的是那一下。
用 more mad about A than B 把荒唐的委屈说得平静，黑色幽默全在语气里。
I was more ... about that than ...
讲往事、自嘲的时候用；对刚出事的人说会显得轻佻，别用。
I was angrier about that than about it failing. ／ The cut bothered me more than the outcome.
口语
more 重读，than it not working 放慢。
I was more upset about the stain than the broken cup. 比起杯子碎了，我更心疼那块污渍。
“That fucking fan stayed on the floor for about half a year.”
那破吊扇在地上躺了差不多半年。
把最黑暗的自杀往事收在一个躺了半年的吊扇上，黑色幽默里全是没人管的孤独。
That X stayed there for about Y.
用一句荒诞细节讲自己的旧伤、化解沉重时用，熟人之间可以；对刚认识的人说太重，要看时机。
It sat there for months, untouched. ／ Nobody moved it for half a year.
口语
fucking fan 连读，stayed on the floor 放慢，half a year 收尾下沉。
That broken shelf stayed on the floor for about half a year. 那个破架子在地上躺了差不多半年。
He was big into the blues, so... 'Cause you gotta figure, it's just me and him all day long. My brother's out there tryin' to make something of himself. So I took one of his belts. I put it around the ceiling fan and tried to do the deed. The whole fucking fan came out of the ceiling. Had a big cut on my fucking forehead. I was more mad about that than it not working. And he didn't even notice. He didn't even fucking notice. - 'Cause he was drunk? - Yeah. That fucking fan stayed on the floor for about half a year.
他特别迷布鲁斯，所以…… 你想啊，整天就我和他两个人。 我哥在外头闯自己的路。 所以我拿了他一条皮带。 我把它挂在吊扇上 想一了百了。 结果那破吊扇整个从天花板上掉了下来。 我额头上划了老大一道口子。 比起没死成，我更气这个。 他根本没发现。 他他妈的根本没发现。 - 因为他喝醉了？ - 对。 那破吊扇在地上躺了差不多半年。
下一章 · 13come with me跟我一起来这场戏：经纪人劝退妻子挽留字面是「做那件事」，具体指什么看语境，常指下决心动手、把事办了，有时也指男女那档子事。这里说的是杰克当年想结束自己。
be big into something，比如 he was big into the blues（他特别迷布鲁斯）。比 like 更口语，程度也更重。
booze 是口语、俗话，指酒，也可以指喝酒这件事，日常聊天常用；alcohol 更正式。without the booze 就是「不喝酒之后」。
不是字面的粘。stick with someone 是「守在某人身旁、一直陪着、不离开」。I need to stick with you 就是「我得跟着你、不离开你」。
字面是「从我身上掉出来」，实际指想法、文字自然而然冒出来、脱口而出。写歌写作卡壳时，就能说 it just fell out of me。
You are gonna come back, right? 或者 You gonna come home when you're done? 句尾的 right 就是「对吧」，用来求一个确认，带点不安。
