这场戏：星空下坦白吃药心事
第 15 章 · 共 18 章 · 2'30"
两人坐在屋外看星星，有人忽然开口坦白自己一直在吃 anti-depressants（抗抑郁药），还说 I feel so embarrassed（特别难为情）：生活看着没毛病，心里却总有说不清的悲伤。对方轻声回应，表示能理解。想聊那些说不出口的心事、想接住朋友的脆弱，这几句都很贴。
❝ 独白 · 13 句 坦白吃 anti-depressants（抗抑郁药）
anti-depressants 抗抑郁药nothing wrong 没有任何问题comes from 来自、源自haven't cried 已经很久没哭过
两人坐在屋外看星星，一句 Decent amount of stars tonight（今晚星星不少）之后，话题慢慢变沉。有人坦白自己一直在吃 anti-depressants（抗抑郁药），而且 I haven't told anyone（没跟任何人说过），连最亲近的人都没讲；说这些时 I feel so embarrassed（特别难为情），因为生活里 nothing wrong（没有任何问题），可就是有一股悲伤，And I don't know where it comes from（不知道它从哪儿来）。对方没有追问，只轻轻说 Well, I can understand that（这我能理解）。后来被问到怎么不跟克里斯聊聊，回答是 There was a time（曾经有那么一段时候）我会说的。想聊心事、想安慰别人、想解释一种说不清的难受，这些说法都值得记。
A1–C2 是欧标等级。点一个等级后，比它高的卡片会变淡，播放到那里不会自动暂停。
“Can I tell you something?”
我能跟你说件事吗？
一句最普通的开场，却把坦白前的犹豫说得刚刚好。
Can I tell you something?
想郑重说一件事、尤其是不好开口的事时用；对熟人、对家人都能用。
Can I tell you something important? ／ Can I share something with you?
口语
tell you 连读，句尾用升调表示询问。
Can I tell you something that has been on my mind? 我能跟你说一件一直压在我心里的事吗？
“And I don't know where it comes from.”
我也说不清它从哪儿来。
把说不出口的难过塞进一句 I don't know，越平越重。
don't know where it comes from
说不清某种情绪、毛病的来由时用；语气无奈，适合对信任的人说。
I can't tell where it comes from. ／ I don't know where it started.
中性
don't know 连读，where it 轻轻带过。
I get anxious on Sundays, and I don't know where it comes from. 我一到周日就焦虑，也说不上来为什么。
“Well, I can understand that.”
嗯，这我能理解。
不说教、不追问，只用一句 I can understand 把对方接住。
I can understand that.
别人说出难处或委屈时用；表示共情，不要跟着补一堆建议。
I understand how you feel. ／ That makes sense to me.
中性
understand 重音在第三音节，句尾自然下降。
I can understand why you are upset about it. 我理解你为什么为这件事难过。
“Yeah I don't have that particular problem myself.”
是啊，我自己倒没这个特别的毛病。
一句半自嘲卸掉沉重，让坦白不至于变成独角戏。
I don't have that problem.
别人讲自己的困扰、你想接话又不抢戏时用；轻松场合较合适。
That's not my problem exactly. ／ I don't have that issue myself.
口语
particular 重读，myself 轻收。
I don't have that particular problem, but I do hate mornings. 我倒没这个毛病，可我特别讨厌早晨。
“Why don't you talk to Chris about it?”
你怎么不跟克里斯聊聊这件事？
看似建议，其实点出了她把秘密藏得有多深。
Why don't you talk to someone?
给人提温和建议时用；语气比 You should 软，别在对方正难过时追问。
Maybe you should talk to him. ／ Have you talked to Chris about it?
口语
Why don't you 连读，talk to 轻轻一带。
Why don't you talk to your doctor about it? 你怎么不去跟医生聊聊这件事？
“There was a time when I... I would have.”
曾经有一段时间，我会的。
说一半停住的 would have，把说不下去的过去留成空白。
There was a time when...
感慨今非昔比、话说到一半说不下去时用；语气很私人，适合对老友。
I would have once. ／ There was a time I would have said yes.
literary
句中断开两截，would have 放轻，尾音下沉。
There was a time when I would have joined you without thinking. 换作从前，我想都不想就会跟你去。
I've been taking anti-depressants... For a while. I haven't told anyone. You know, not even Chris. You know, i don't know why... I feel so embarrassed... About taking them. And it's probably because there's nothing you know, there's nothing wrong with my life. I should be happy. But there's this... Sadness... And I don't know where it comes from.
我一直在吃抗抑郁药…… 有一阵子了。 我没跟任何人说过。 你知道吗，连克里斯都没告诉。 你知道，我也不知道为什么…… 我觉得特别难为情…… 因为要吃这些药。 大概是因为，你知道，我生活里没有任何问题 我的生活。 我本该是快乐的。 可心里总有这种…… 悲伤…… 而我不知道它从哪儿来。
下一章 · 16on my behalf替我这场戏：说起孩子走后的空房子就是「抗抑郁药」，用来治疗抑郁或情绪低落的处方药。台词里说 I've been taking anti-depressants，就是我一直在吃这种药。
feel embarrassed，也可以说 feel so embarrassed 加重语气。它的意思更接近「觉得尴尬、不好意思」，不一定是羞愧，用在这里是因为吃药这件事不好开口。
there was a time，后面常接 when 从句。比如 There was a time when I would have，意思是「曾经有那么一段时候，我会那么做」。
字面是「没有错、没有问题」，这里指生活挑不出毛病。说话人不解：明明一切正常，却还是难过，所以更觉得难以启齿。
大部分时候就是「来自、源自」，可以指人来自某地，也可以指情绪、问题的来源。这里说不知道这股悲伤从哪儿来，就是取后者。
可以说 I can understand that，简短又温和。对方分享难以启齿的感受时，用它既不追问也不敷衍，是很好的一句接话。
