drift out of mind
Hanssen says Sundays with Mass and the kids make his other worries fade.
Makes everything else fade away.Breach · 2007 — 第 8 / 20 章 · 3'09" · B2
A Sunday visit turns into Hanssen's confession. He talks about the father who "rigged my first driving test" to make him fail, about a career where "the perks go to the guys who play the game," and about faith and family filling the rest. It's the closest he comes to letting someone see who he is.
Hanssen has Eric over on a Sunday. He says he loves Sundays — Mass, the kids, everything else fading away — then opens up about his father, who rigged his driving test so he would fail and thought it would toughen him up. He admits he tests people too. Later he talks about his stalled career and retirement, and gives Eric research on Parkinson's for his mother.
注目の表現
fade awayrigtoughen upbe up on
このシーンの表現
follow the unwritten rules
Hanssen says the perks go to those who play the game and politick.
He refused to play the game and got passed over.
drift out of mind
tamper with secretly
make someone tougher
be informed about
be able to stomach it
44 行のセリフに 24 件のメモ
drift out of mind
Hanssen says Sundays with Mass and the kids make his other worries fade.
Makes everything else fade away.Fade away links smoothly, almost like fay-daway.
Makes everything else fade away.be prying
Sorry. I was snooping. Don't be.be at ease
I want you to feel at home here.The t in want you often softens in fast speech.
I want you to feel at home here.take pride in
Must've been proud of you.wish someone to
He wanted me to be a doctor.tamper with
He rigged my first driving test, the day I turned 16.strike a private deal with
Made an arrangement with my DMV instructor.harden someone
He thought it would toughen me up.should
More than I ought to.a mild exclamation — A softened way to say oops; too casual for formal settings.
Oh! Shoot. Almost forgot.a fair amount of
Been quite a bit of progress in the last few years.keep informed about
Didn't know if you were up on it.noun clause: The if-clause is the object of know and means whether.
Didn't know if you were up on it.relative clause: The who-clause identifies which family member he means.
Is there someone in your family who has Parkinson's?as one example
By whoever gives out window offices, for one.noun clause: The whoever-clause is the object of by and means anyone who.
By whoever gives out window offices, for one.make a big deal
I think I made too much fuss of all that.what use is it to me
I'll be gone so soon anyway, what good would a window do me now?That's runs straight into mandatory with little pause.
Fifty-seven in two months, that's mandatory retirement.someone forgotten
I could stay there another hundred years, and still just be an afterthought.follow the unwritten rules
Hanssen says the perks go to those who play the game and politick.
The perks go to the guys who play the game, the ones who politick.be able to stomach it
Hanssen admits he never had the stomach for office politics.
I knew a long time ago I didn't have the stomach for that.The scene reads as hospitality, but Hanssen is really handing Eric the story of his life and watching how he takes it. He starts with the Sunday ritual — "I love Sundays... Having the kids here. Makes everything else fade away" — then slides into the father who rigged his driving test to teach him a lesson: "He thought it would toughen me up." That memory explains the rest: a man who "tests people" because he was tested, who resents a Bureau where "the perks go to the guys who play the game," and who finishes with "I know what I've done." The gift of Parkinson's research is aimed at Eric's mother, a rare unguarded gesture. Even while complaining about being an afterthought, Hanssen is measuring Eric — asking for sympathy and revealing the pride he won't drop.
I want you to feel at home here.Hanssen's welcome to Eric, inviting him into a family setting even as he keeps testing him.
He rigged my first driving test, the day I turned 16.His father secretly arranged for him to fail the test, a lesson in toughness instead of help.
He thought it would toughen me up.Hanssen explains his father's motive: making things harder was meant to make him stronger.
I could stay there another hundred years, and still just be an afterthought.He feels the Bureau would never have put him first, no matter how long he served.
The perks go to the guys who play the game, the ones who politick.Rewards, he says, go to office politicians, not to people who do the work.
I know what I've done.A quiet closing claim of self-knowledge, offering him a verdict the Bureau never gave.
It's partly warmth and partly a test. Hanssen wants Eric to feel at home and lets his guard down, but even here he is watching how the young man reacts to his stories about faith, family and work.
That his father deliberately made him fail to toughen him up. Hanssen repeats the idea without complaint, and admits he now tests people the same way — the scene points to how he was shaped.
He believes promotions go to people who 'play the game' and politick, and he says he never had the stomach for that. With retirement near, he treats the slight as something he's made peace with.
Eric mentioned his mother has Parkinson's. Hanssen downloaded everything he could find and passes it on, a rare personal gesture that shows the two men are closer than the job allows.
It's Hanssen's answer to the judgements of other men. He says he doesn't care what people think because he has his own ledger — a line that lands very differently once you know the whole story.
次のチャプター · 第 9 章shoot his mouth offKate Reveals Hanssen Is a Traitor
第 1 章riding the deskEric Is Assigned to Watch Hanssen
第 2 章keep an eye onKate Recruits Eric to Spy on Hanssen
第 3 章lapsedHanssen Interrogates His New Assistant
第 4 章wipe off the mapHanssen Explains Why He Stayed
第 5 章turf protectionEric Gets Debriefed on Turf Protection
第 6 章the varsityHanssen Lectures Eric on God and Empire
第 7 章work miraclesKate Explains Why They Picked Eric
再生中 · 第 8 章play the gameHanssen Invites Eric to His Home
第 9 章shoot his mouth offKate Reveals Hanssen Is a Traitor
第 10 章caught in the actEric Learns the Real Story
第 11 章be read inKate Reveals the Mole Was Hanssen
第 12 章insanely loyalHanssen's Letter to the KGB
第 13 章boundariesJuliana Confronts Eric About Hanssen
第 14 章put on yourselfEric Asks His Father About Quitting
第 15 章come out firingHanssen's DIA Meeting Cut Short
第 16 章power playHanssen Dumps His Tail
第 17 章sure as hellEric Confesses He Lied to Hanssen
第 18 章keep 'em straightJuliana Reads Herself Into the Case
第 19 章keep your head on straightEric Questions If It's Worth It
第 20 章at the end of the dayHanssen Pulls a Gun on Eric