这场戏：电台谈害羞与商场闲逛
第 11 章 · 共 17 章 · 5'02"
上电台前有人问 You're wearing that?（你就穿这个？），进了直播间，主持人念出华莱士那句自评「既极其害羞，又是个自恋狂」，他补一句：害羞其实就是 self-absorbed（自我沉溺）。下节目两人去逛美国购物中心，他又自嘲再畅销也 you can't win（赢不了）。想学会用一个词精准形容性格，也学会用英文自嘲，这段很妙。
电台聊害羞：self-absorbed（自我沉溺）
burst on the literary scene 横空出世、一鸣惊人self-absorbed 自我沉溺、只想着自己a little bit of both 两边都有一点
❝ 独白 · 7 句 书是写孤独的：read hard（硬着头皮深读）
read hard 硬着头皮深读nerve endings 神经末梢do me a great favor 帮我个大忙
❝ 独白 · 8 句 畅销的悖论：you can't win（赢不了）
shore yourself up 撑住自己、稳住自己sells really well 卖得特别好、畅销you can't win 怎么做都不对、赢不了
华莱士和利普斯基赶到明尼阿波利斯做电台节目。上节目前，一句 You're wearing that?（你就穿这个？）先来点火药味；主持人介绍他 burst on the scene（横空出世），又念出他那句自评「既极其害羞，又是个自恋狂」。他解释说，害羞其实就是 self-absorbed（自我沉溺），沉溺到让别人难跟你相处。下节目后两人去美国购物中心，他聊起写作要写出美国生活的质感，也聊到孤独，还自嘲书卖得好就 gotta be shit（肯定是垃圾），再畅销也 you can't win（赢不了）。想在聊天里精准形容性格、幽默自嘲，这些说法都很能打。
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“I think being shy basically means being self-absorbed...”
我觉得害羞基本上就是自我沉溺……
一句话把害羞从讨喜的性格翻成自我的毛病，视角够狠。
being X basically means being Y
想重新定义一个人人熟悉的词时用；对当事人当面说会显得冒犯。
Being quiet often just means being self-absorbed. ／ What we call shyness is really self-focus.
literary
basically 轻读，self-absorbed 重读拉长。
Being busy often just means being self-absorbed. 所谓忙，往往只是自我沉溺。
“All I know is this is absolutely the best I could do between 1992 and 1995.”
我只知道，这是我在一九九二到一九九五年间能拿出的最好的东西。
用年份框住一段心血，谦逊里全是底气。
all I know is this is the best I could do
想平静地为自己多年的付出辩护时用；对客户承诺时别说这种话。
All I know is I gave it everything I had. ／ This is simply the best I could manage then.
中性
absolutely 重读，两个年份放慢，句尾落平。
All I know is this is the best I could do with the time I had. 我只知道，这是我在有限时间里能拿出的最好的结果。
“It's now part of the darkness nexus when it does, so you're totally screwed.”
一旦大卖，它就成了那团黑暗的一部分，所以你就彻底完蛋了。
把成功写成陷阱，最后一词收得又狠又好笑。
so you're totally screwed
想调侃某种怎么做都错的处境时用；正式场合别用 screwed。
So either way you are stuck. ／ The whole thing leaves you cornered.
口语
nexus 重读，totally screwed 两个词都加重。
Follow the rule or break it, either way you're totally screwed. 守规矩也好，破规矩也好，反正你都完蛋。
“It's a fairly nerdy book, too, about loneliness.”
这也是一本相当书呆子气的书，讲的是孤独。
用「书呆子气」给孤独去魅，作者自评反而成了最好的宣传。
It's a fairly ... book about ...
自嘲作品或爱好时能用；对想被夸的人别这么说，看对象。
It's a fairly quiet film, too, about grief.
中性
fairly 弱读，nerdy book 重读，loneliness 降调。
It's a fairly slow book, too, about growing up. 这也是本节奏挺慢的书，讲的是长大。
I think that if there's a sort of sadness for people under 45, it has something to do with pleasure and achievement and entertainment. Like a sort of emptiness at the heart of what they thought was going on, and maybe I can hope that some parts of the book... speak to their nerve endings a little bit. Mm-hmm. If you quote any of this, by the way, you'd do me a great favor by saying... this is what I hope for the book, you know. This is what the book is trying to achieve. I don't pretend that it has.
我觉得，如果四十五岁以下的人有种悲伤，那跟享乐 成就和娱乐有关。 就像他们以为的生活内核里，其实有种空虚。也许我能指望书里的某些部分…… 能稍微触到他们的神经末梢。——嗯。 顺便说，如果你要引用这些，帮我个忙，就写…… 这是我对这本书的期望，你知道。 这是这本书想达到的。我并不假装它已经做到了。
When you're used to doing heavy-duty literary stuff that doesn't sell well, being human animals with egos, you accommodate that fact by the following equation. If something sells really well, gets a lot of attention, it's gotta be shit, right? Right. Of course. The ultimate irony is, if your thing starts selling well, gets a lot of attention, the very mechanism you used to shore yourself up... when your thing didn't sell well... Doesn't work anymore. It's now part of the darkness nexus when it does, so you're totally screwed. You know, you can't win.
当你习惯写那种卖不动的严肃文学，而人又是带着自我的动物， 你就会用下面这个公式来接受这个事实。 ——如果什么东西卖得特别好、特别受关注，那肯定是垃圾，对吧？——对。当然。 最大的讽刺是，如果你的东西开始大卖、 开始备受关注，那个你用来撑住自己的机制…… 在你东西卖不动时用的那套……就不管用了。 一旦大卖，它就成了那团黑暗的一部分，所以你就彻底完蛋了。 你知道，你赢不了。
下一章 · 12come on to someone勾搭某人这场戏：为贝琪跟记者翻脸意思是「自我沉溺、只想着自己」。台词里华莱士说害羞其实就是 self-absorbed，意思是一个人太沉溺于自己，反而让别人难以相处。
burst on the scene。台词里主持人介绍他 has burst on the literary scene，就是「横空出现在文坛」，形容新人或作品突然爆红时很好用。
shore yourself up。台词里 the very mechanism you used to shore yourself up 就是「你用来撑住自己的那套机制」，指靠某种说法让自己在低谷里站稳。
意思是「怎么做都不对、赢不了」。台词里说完书卖不卖都难受，接一句 You know, you can't win，是无奈又带笑的认输。
意思是「报复、回敬某人」，多是开玩笑的语气。台词里说 I got, like, 20 years to get you back，就是「我有的是时间，二十年后再回敬你」。
