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Decent amount of stars tonight.Blue Jay · 2016 — 第 15 / 18 章 · 2'30" · B1
Under a sky full of stars, one of them admits to something kept private: 'I've been taking anti-depressants,' and 'I haven't told anyone.' The embarrassment isn't about the pills so much as the mismatch — a life with 'nothing wrong' that still carries a sadness 'I don't know where it comes from.'
Outside at night, the two look up at the stars and the talk turns serious. One confesses to taking anti-depressants and admits no one knows — 'I haven't told anyone.' The shame comes from having a life with nothing wrong and still feeling a sadness whose source is unclear. The other doesn't push, and simply says, 'I can understand that.'
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anti-depressantsfeel embarrassednothing wrongcome from
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there used to be a period when
Asked why she won't talk to Chris, Amanda says she would have once, then trails off.
There was a time when we talked every day.
medication that treats depression
to feel ashamed or awkward
no problem at all
to originate from
I get what you mean
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a fair amount
Decent amount of stars tonight.to tell a person something
Can I tell you something?Practice blending Can I into a single sound.
Can I tell you something?to have kept taking
I've been taking anti-depressants...present perfect continuous: It shows an action that started in the past and is still going on now.
I've been taking anti-depressants...Listen for the reduced vowel in been.
I've been taking anti-depressants...for some time
For a while.to tell a single person
I haven't told anyone.Link told and anyone as one smooth phrase.
I haven't told anyone.used to stress the last example
You know, not even Chris.to feel very awkward
I feel so embarrassed...no problem at all
She explains her guilt: there is nothing wrong with her life, yet she is not happy.
And it's probably because there's nothing you know, there's nothing wrongto feel content
I should be happy.to originate in
And I don't know where it comes from.embedded question: The clause is the object of know, so it keeps normal word order.
And I don't know where it comes from.to be able to relate
Well, I can understand that.to not have done it for years
Literally haven't cried in five years.really, truly — An informal intensifier, best avoided in formal writing.
Literally haven't cried in five years.a specific issue
Yeah I don't have that particular problem myself.to speak with someone
Why don't you talk to Chris about it?there used to be a period
There was a time when I... I would have.relative clause: The when-clause describes which period in the past she means.
There was a time when I... I would have.The confession is carefully shaped, and the shape is the point. It arrives as 'Can I tell you something?' rather than a statement, and then hedges with 'you know' and 'for a while.' What feels unbearable isn't the medication but the logic around it: 'I should be happy,' yet there is a sadness with no source — 'And I don't know where it comes from.' Saying it to an old friend, at night, is easier than saying it at home. When asked the obvious question — 'Why don't you talk to Chris about it?' — the answer isn't a reason, it's a tense: 'There was a time when I... I would have.' That shift from present to past is the scene's quiet center: closeness with the partner has changed, while this old intimacy still works. The listener keeps it light and simple: 'Well, I can understand that,' which is enough.
Can I tell you something?A delicate opener that asks permission before a confession, softening whatever comes next.
And I don't know where it comes from.The core of it: a sadness with no identifiable cause, which makes it harder to explain.
Well, I can understand that.The listener's quiet acceptance, offering understanding without probing further.
Yeah I don't have that particular problem myself.A light, self-deprecating reply that names the exact problem — not being able to cry.
Why don't you talk to Chris about it?The obvious question about the partner, raising why this hasn't been shared at home.
There was a time when I... I would have.A past-tense answer: once, they would have confided in Chris — but not anymore.
Because nothing looks wrong from outside. The speaker says it's probably because 'there's nothing wrong with my life' and 'I should be happy,' which makes the sadness harder to justify or explain.
It shows a managed, private struggle: they've been taking medication 'for a while,' haven't told anyone, and mention that they 'literally haven't cried in five years.'
The answer suggests distance: 'There was a time when I... I would have.' Once they would have opened up to Chris, but that closeness seems to have faded.
Chris is referenced as someone close, the natural person to talk to about this. The refusal to confide in Chris is what the conversation circles around.
It's a small joke about not being able to cry. They say they don't have 'that particular problem,' picking up on the detail that the speaker hasn't cried in five years.
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