“How they hate me.”
Four words turn a front-row stare into hate and then refuse to explain or plead.
Informal
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She walks in, bows, and climbs to the witness stand to swear "the whole truth and nothing but the truth." From the dock, a shake of the head replaces the apology she expects: "What have you done?" Under the oath sits another question: whether she will go through with this.
A Head Shake Instead of Sorry
❝ Monólogo · 5 frases The Only Woman in the Room
❝ Monólogo · 5 frases Why she is still here
The question opens a list of costs, and the list answers by refusing to leave.
A woman walks into court to give her evidence. She bows, makes her way up to the witness stand, and swears to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Julian's family sits up front. Julian is in the dock. The jury are strangers, the judge looks at his laptop, and she sees she is the only woman in the room.
The surface is procedure: bow, walk, oath, and a look around the room. "How they hate me" lands before any question, aimed at Julian's parents and brother in the gallery. Julian does not mouth an apology. The shake of his head replaces it with "What have you done?" She looks to the jury, "these strangers," and says they will be the ones, while the judge is still reading a file. Then she counts: judge, clerk, prosecuting counsel, police, instructing solicitor, usher, all men. "I am the only woman." The oath asks for the whole truth. The monologue also carries "Are you sure you want to go through with this?" The lines do not say who asks. After the snide and embarrassed looks, the statements, the rape kit, and the nightmares, she is still there: "I am here. I am right here." She has called upon the system she dedicated her life to. The prosecutor stands to open the case.
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“How they hate me.”
Four words turn a front-row stare into hate and then refuse to explain or plead.
Informal
“I look at the jury. They will be the ones, these strangers.”
She places the decision with people she has never met, and the word strangers chills it.
literary
“I am the only woman. Even the court usher is a man!”
Naming the usher, the least powerful man in the room, makes the all-male court feel total.
Informal
“'Are you sure you want to go through with this?'”
It is a quiet offer to quit, asked only after the worst has already been paid.
Neutral
“I am here. I am right here.”
The second here, with right in it, plants her in the room after every reason to vanish.
literary
Bar table, bench. Panic. All the barristers are men! The judge, the judge's clerk, the prosecuting counsel, the police, the instructing solicitor. I am the only woman. Even the court usher is a man! I am the only one – the only woman. I can feel my heart thumping, the blood actually rushing through me.
'Are you sure you want to go through with this?' After all the snide and embarrassed looks at work, the doubts people have expressed about me, the statements, the rape kit, the ongoing scouring of my own body, the nightmares, the vomiting, the digging into my own flesh, I am here. I am right here.
Siguiente · 17put it down toLa escena: Tessa Runs into JulianShe expects him to mouth "I'm sorry." Instead the shake of his head says "What have you done?" The apology does not arrive.
She looks at the bar table and the bench and panics. The judge, his clerk, the prosecuting counsel, the police, the instructing solicitor, and even the court usher are men.
The jury. She calls them "these strangers" and says they will be the ones. The judge is looking at a file on his laptop.
Snide and embarrassed looks at work, doubts, statements, a rape kit, nightmares, vomiting, and digging into her own flesh. She still says, "I am here. I am right here."